Head over Heels || book one.

Tears of a Broken Heart

Author's note:

Listen to the song Over Again - One Dierction, while reading this chapter, please. It sets the mood and creates atmosphere.

Sarah’s POV

I didn’t know what I wanted anymore. Education, friends and family, boyfriend, travel, experience. So much to choose. But this was my one chance to go here. Something I’d always wanted, it ticked all the boxes, been the top of all my lists, but that was before this summer. That band. Those boys. No. They didn’t sway my choice. I did. It was my choice to say what I said, or what I didn’t say.

As Stef pulled into Taralgon, I took in a deep breath. I’d done what I’d done. And I couldn’t change that now. She parked the car and got my bag out. “What am I going to do without you?” Stef’s eyes began to water.

“You’ll see me again before you know it. Don’t worry. I’m always here anyway.” I hugged her. I wasn’t going to see her again for two months.

“But you won’t be here.” Stef sobbed.

“No. But I’ll be here.” I put her hand over her heart. “I promise.”

The bus pulled up then and Stef began to cry. I walked up to the door. “I’ll miss you.” I called getting on.

“I’ll miss you too.” Stef yelled.

The bus pulled away as I sat down. I took one of the back seats. My bag on the chair next to me. “Hello?” I called the school’s number.

“Yes.”

“I can catch the seven thirty plane.”

“Ok.”

Still I hadn’t cried, but there I sat, feet pushing against the chair in front of me, sitting on my back knees to my chin. My eyes watered, but I still didn’t cry. I just regretted what I had and hadn’t done.

Top ten regrets;

Taking that call; letting Cassie give Josh my diary.

Playing twenty questions with Josh.

Running into Josh’s shoulder while playing tennis.

Telling him about my dream.

Being a complete idiot to not see what was right in front of me.

Nightmares.

Arguing all the time, mostly for no reason.

That I was always so shy.

Not kissing Josh.

Not allowing myself to fall for Josh.

***

I just sat there like that the whole time. I had been on the bus for about an hour now. My phone rang, again. I took it out of my pocket and glanced at the caller ID. Josh. “Hey.” I said softly.

“Hey.” He said, just as softly. “I just wanted you to know that no matter how cheesy it is to say, but you are the best thing that’s ever happened to me, you make me happy everyday since we met, and if I had a star for every time you made me smile, I’d hold the galaxy. You didn’t have to say anything just you being there with me was enough. And every time we touch there was something new, and when you entered a room, you just brightened it all up, it felt like I was seeing you for the first time all over again; green eyes, long brown curly hair and perfect smile. I felt like the luckiest person alive, to have someone like you-no, to have you, and to call you mine.”

From my end of the call, I was in tears. “I miss you already.” He whispered.

“I miss you too.” I said.

“The first day, you caught my eye, you were special to me without reason. And just like that, my heart was in your hands. You are the finest, loveliest, tenderest and most beautiful person I have ever known - and even that is an understatement.” He stammered.

“You turned my life on end. Kept me on my toes for so many reasons, yet seemed so soft at the same time. It seemed like you were gripping on, but always just holding my hand.” I tried to explain.

“And I’m sorry I haven’t said anything. But you were different, why couldn’t we just go back to yesterday, I’d be different, I’d tell you everything, I-I...” He paused as he sobbed. My breath got caught in the back of my throat.

“I would too.” I finished for him. Tears trailed down my cheeks.