We're so far away from you

We love you, we always will...

"you! you! you! you! what the hell do you think you are doing here?!!"

this is where you talk!

"I said what are you doing here?"

"I am a fill in for sisky. the academy is..."

"Who do you think you are just showing up here?"

"Excuse me?"

"And what look you obviously have been busy."

he was pointing at my kids...our kids...

and i know what they were thinking its not polite to point.

"moma.."

"Not now Luke"

Mikey came running as did Matt and William

"Gerard!"

"What Mikey?! look she got knocked up and had kids!"

Luke and Annabelle started to grab onto my my legs

"mama...did you know Gerard before?"

"Moma did you?"

what else could i say?

"Yes I did."

He didn't look like the Gerard I knew, he was fuming.

And he was staring at our kids like they were a disease.

"Yeah so is he the father huh? that skinny twig?!"

"Gerard back off."

"What? so he is huh?"

"Gerard I am warning you."

"What Isabella? am I hitting a soft spot huh? because you know its true huh?"

"Gerard I said back off!"

"What you think you can waltz back in here into my life and think I won't be angry!"

oh fuck it.

"Gerard look at them! I left five years ago!!"

"what makes you think I know who have you been with?!"

"Gerard they are your kids!!"

"What?"

Everyone just immediately got quiet,

Luke was the first to speak up

"moma...is he really our dad?"

"Mama...is he?"

"Yes kids he is. Matt, Will can you take them to the bus, me and Gerard have some things to discuss."

"No wait moma we want to stay."

"Luke don't argue with me and go with your uncle."

"Okay."

and then they both left and turned to look at Gerard and walked off

"Are they really my kids?"

"Shit Gerard could you not tell?"

"Well I..."

"Mikey knew right away when he first saw them today."

"What? Mikey?"

"Yes he ran into me and everything spilled out."

"Wait has Mikey known where you have been all this time?"

mikey stepped in

"No I haven't but I have been talking to her these past five years."

"What?! how come you didn't tell me?"

"Because she told me not to and I made her promise me that I would be able to call her."

"What the hell Mikes I thought you were my brother?!"

"I am Gerard! But look at the way you are treating her! Now calm down or I will make you calm down!"

"Fine...fine.."

he started breathing to calm himself down

"My life was coming back together...it was just coming together and then you show up."

"what?'

"I WAS FINALLY LIVING NORMALY! FINALLY!"

"Now Gerard Arthur Way dont you dare yell at me!"

"No...its fine because...because The Academy Is...only on this tour half way and then they split and headline their own."

"I know...I will be home by then."

"Good then I will never have to see you or your kids ever again!"

its like he stabbed me in the heart

and completely shattered it...

well what did you expect?

I was about to cry

hold it together

"Is that you think? because if it is then I won't be needing this anymore."

I slipped off the promise he gave me five years ago and put it in his hand and ran off all the way back to the bus and into my bunk and just let the tears flow.

I left him, I Left HIM what the hell was I expecting?

and then my curtain pulled open and there they were.

my kids they didn't say a word they just climbed in and got comfortable and we stayed like that as I cried.

and all they said was

"we love you moma."

"We always will."

they were the only things that mattered now

even if their dad didn't want anything to do with them.

this was the only thing I would fight for and protect.