We're so far away from you

He is like head over heels...

the days passed and we spend every waking time together.

even to the point it was either Gee's bus with all four us or my bus.

So we went back and forth.

any question he had I answered.

"Bells you ever dated anyone after me?"

"I tried but I couldn't deal with the assholes out there."

"Really?"

"Yeah I tried but they couldn't deal with twins and Will being around always."

"So he has always been around?.... Twiggy"

there was this sound to his voice, like a little edge that made it more apparent that he was jealous of Will...

"Gee be nice his name is Will and yeah he has. We are close, Matt and him are best friends."

"So you two never...you know."

"Oh gosh no that would be weird. He is protective of me and the twins. He has seen some assholes come into my life and try to break me but it never happened."

"Oh.."

"Yeah so we are just close so on the outside it seems like we are dating but we are not."

"So nothing."

"No sugar so dont give him the death glare when he hugs me alright?"

"I make no promises."

he always asked questions about Luke and Lee while they were playing with the guys and Matt.

"So whats their favorite color?"

"They both love red and black."

"Really?"

"Yep they always match its scary."

"Their birthday?"

"You will think its funny."

"tell me."

"April 9th"

"We have the same birthday!"

"Yes you do. they always have their birthdays on tour since they were 3 thats when I started touring."

"Wow. so they never had a party?"

"Like a home party? No they haven't"

"You think they would like one?"

"I don't know you would have to ask them if they would its their day."

"Hmm...hey kids."

"yeah dad?"

"What do you think about having a little birthday bash when it comes around?"

"Lee? You wanna?"

"I don't know...could it just be us?"

"Yeah Us and the family only?"

"Uncle Mikey, Matt, Frankie, Ray, Bob, and Will, Andrew ,Mike , Michael?"

"Yeah sure kiddo anything you two want."

they ran off excited and went to tell the guys.

"Gee you sure?"

"Yeah baby. come on I missed five birthdays, five years worth of bedtimes stories, lullabies, hugs, playtime, making music with them. Baby I need this."

"Okay sugar okay."

he brought me closer to him.

and held me.

"I wish I could have been there."

"I am sorry Gee for taking that away from you."

"no Bells it wasn't you. It was her and now I am glad to be rid of her because I get my family and my kids."

"I am happy too. So since you are taking care of the kids what do you want for your birthday?"

"Hmm....I get anything?"

"Anything sugar name it."

"Let me think about it I will tell you okay?"

"okay."

the months started to pass by and we all got closer and Gee was going crazy with the twins party.

"Babe take it easy they will love whatever you do for them."

"I know Bells I just want this to be good you know."

"I know just relax and take a walk."

"You know what you are right I will see you in a bit baby."

"Okay I love you."

"Love you too Bells."

I smiled and went to prepare the twins gifts for when the party came.

"Hey there sis."

"Whats up Matty?"

"I need help writing questions for the interview."

"Well ask them stuff you would want to know, nothing to personal I do not need people outside our house."

"Okay but I can't stop Gee mentioning the twins okay?"

"alright. Hey Matt what do you think gee would like for his birthday?"

"Maybe a nice picture of his kids."

"You think so?"

"Yeah I mean he loves them Alli. Ever since he found out he was a dad he loves them to death."

"I know huh I never thought he would step up like this but he has."

"Alli he isnt the kind of guy to hold a grudge against a women he loves."

"Its nice to know he still loves me."

"You kidding me? He is like head over heels sis."

"I know what I will give him now."

"Good now don't tell me because I will tell."

"hahaha alright, I have to find Gee now I need to ask him a few questions."

"Okay I am going to jam with the twins, they started a session with Mikey and Ray. I want to drum."

"Okay bro."

I walked out of the bus looking for him.

But then it clicked I knew where he was.

I walked in between the buses where no one was and I smelled the cigerette smoke and a hint of vanilla late.

I smiled and followed the scent.

I walked around the corner of the bus and saw something that made me lose my fucking cool.