We're so far away from you

Well shut up Gerard Arthur Way and fight for her! (Gerard)

you are stupid Gerard.

shut up!

what?  you know I am right.

What did I just say?

I mean you sleep with your monster of an ex and you just lost the love of your life, seriously man you must have been drunk or on something.

ha ha now shut up unless you have something to help me solve what the fuck happened last night!

well calm down and think back.

okay I was having a planing session with Bells and then I turned in early to be rested for the twins birthday and then I came here and I saw bleach blond yelled a little and then nothing..like this blur of events. its like I wasn't even paying attention to what was happening. Like I was...no she wouldn't go that far.

"Gee baby."

"Speak of the devil."

"Gee since we are back together can we talk about the wedding?"

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"Remember last night you asked me to marry you and I said yes."

"I would never marry you. even if you were the last woman on earth!"

"Gee now now temper that is no way to talk to your fiancee"

"Shut the fuck up! we are not engaged and you took the best thing in my life away you crazy bitch! I don't love you what part of that do you not understand!?!"

"that's not what you said last night."

"Oh gosh I would never want you. ever."

"But i thought..."

"You thought wrong."

then I remembered.

no she wouldn't have.

I was getting some water and then she went to my cup when I went to get some packet that made those sweet drinks to go.

and she slipped something.

that bitch slipped me something.

"You...you slipped me something didn't you!"

"wha-what? no silly I di-didn't"

"You liar!"

"Gee I swear on my life I didn't"

"Well then drop dead because you are lying."

"I am not!"

I grabbed her purse and ransacked through the thing and found it.

the bottle of pills.

I threw it in her face.

"Like I said drop dead bitch and get the fuck out. I never and I mean never want to see that fucking face of yours ever. you got it?"

"Gee please."

"Get out."

"Ge-"

"OUT!"

she ran out, crying like I gave a fuck.

she drugged me.

that fucking psycho drugged me and made it seem like we slept together.

its my kids birthday and gosh darn it I wasn't going to let her ruin this!

I have to make it right.

with her again but how?

I don't know man she thinks you slept with that thing.

yeah I know and I am in deep shit for it.

I mean she was at her last straw and she just seem broken.

you got that right buddy.

shut up and be on my side! fuck! come on think think gosh darn it!

just go to the party it will come to you.

fine.

I grabbed my gifts for Luke and Lee, threw on my leather jacket and walked towards the party.

everyone seem to be enjoying themselves.

running around and playing with the twins.

But Bella just seemed like she was putting on a face for the kids.

Will and Matt were by her side.

not saying a word but knew something bad happened.

"Dad!"

"Daddy o!"

"Hey there guys wow look at you guys. how does it feel to be 6?"

"Yeah like being 5"

"Yeah not much change."

"hahaha here you guys go I thought you might like it."

"What is it dad?"

"well open it princess."

I got them something well...a little unconventional but hey they were going to need it.

"Oh my gosh...."

"Dad you got up matching laptops?"

"Yeah I thought you two could use them to record the songs you guys sing."

"Dad this is perfect! thank you so much."

"Anytime sugar."

"Dad this is wow...I just wow."

"Hey kid you know you guys are the most important thing to me and I want you two to make music that will make me jealous."

"Thanks dad."

I bent down and gave them a hug.

these two were everything to me.

but only one woman owned my heart but I had no idea how to get her back or tell her the truth. let alone get her to look at me without breaking my heart with the look on her face.

well shut up Gerard Arthur Way and fight for her.

fight to get her back and make her see you aren't a total loser.

how?

you know how.