We're so far away from you

he cheated on you, he lied to you, he really never loved you...

I smiled as my angels came running to me with their new gifts from their dad.

“Moma we can finally start recording our covers!”

“Yeah mama we are going to put these away in our bunk we will be back!”

They were so happy and I well…I was praying I can keep it together.

Just keep it together a little while longer...

“Hi Bells.”

Matt and Will stepped up.

“Hey Gerard I suggest you turn around and enjoy the party. You hurt my sister more than enough today.”

“Matt I just wanted to tell her something let me just have a minute alone with her please.”

“I don’t know Way.... she is barely keeping it together.”

“Look stick don’t try to act like her new boyfriend because you are not now back off.”

“What did you just-”

It was getting a little more heated for my taste

“Oh hey! Cool it guys I am here to enjoy my kids birthday now shut up and smile.”

“Bells please just hear me out.”

“Fine if it gets you away from me. I am all ears.”

“I was thinking a word ALONE.”

“Matty, Will could you?”

“yeah sure sis we have to get the cake anyway, come on man.”

“I will be here babe.”

Will gave me a kiss on the cheek which Gerard didn’t like at all and walked away with a sly smile on his face.

“So what do you want to tell me?”

“Look please just listen.”

“I don’t want to hear an excuse Gerard I don’t want to hear li-”

And the all I could remember was soft lips attacking my own that smell oh gosh his smell.

I was a sucker for it, it made me weak in the knees.

What was my name again?

Then all of a sudden I was kissing back for a couple seconds and then my brain clicked.

He cheated on you, he lied to you, he really never loved you.

And with that I pulled away.

“What the fuck Gerard?”

“I am sorry I just…sorry.”

“Alright now either talk or I am going to go play with my kids.”

“OUR kids, they are mine too you know.”

“Yeah now speak.”

“look I didn’t cheat on you.”

“HA!”

“listen to me Alexis drugged me and made it seem like we did something”

“is that the best you got? And here I thought you would tell me the truth.”

“Isabella please I am telling the truth.”

“If you are then prove it.”

All of a sudden he reached into his pocket and pulled out a container of pills.

“here she slipped me these.”

I read the prescription it was made out to a Alexis Madden.

It was a tranquilizer.

No she would have gone that far to…I mean she is evil but no this..

Are you seriously but I mean seriously asking that question women, she threatened you with you own horrible monster of a mother. What makes you think she wouldn’t go this far?

I just…what would maker her go his far?

She is a little screwy...but what now?

What?

Are you going to take him back just like that?

I don’t know.

Well figure it out then because there is only so much time he can wait for you to finally trust him, for you to let him all the way in.

“Look at me Gerard.”

“What?”

“Look me in the eyes.”

He lifted his head and looked at me with those hazel eyes…the ones I love…

They were hurting, sad, and scared but they were honest. They always told the truth.

“Alright now?”

“Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn’t sleep with her.”

“Isabella Allison Black I did not sleep with her.”

I touched his face and ran my thumb across his cheek.

He wasn’t lying.

He closed his eyes and put his hand on top of mine.

“Please Bells believe me.”

“I do sugar but…”

“But what?”

“we and me have a history of being torn apart by her and she is going to stop at nothing to get you. And how easily she gets me to believe her shit...maybe we do need to.”

“Don’t say it please…please Bells don’t...don’t do this to me.”