We're so far away from you

Don't look at me that way...

I walked over to where frank was and he was trying to find them

"Now where could have Luke and Lee have gone huh?"

"Hey Frank want some help?"

"Yeah please they are really good."

"Come on let me show you their spot."

we walked over to where they were always hiding.

"Hey there girls."

"Oh hey Ms. Black."

"Please girls Bella."

"Okay Ms. Bella what can we help you with?"

"You girls would happen to know where two kids about yey high, black hair, hazel eyes, splattered in paint could be would you?"

"Well..."

"Oh girls."

the merch girls pointed over to the pile of stacked clothes with two arms sticking out.

"Hmmm...I don't know if we are ever going to find them Frankie I mean we were going to go get some ice cream and then maybe jam a little before out set but now I don't know."

"Yeah Bells shame I would have let them play my guitar."

and with that they came rushing out and stood in front of us.

"Would you really let us play your guitars Uncle Frankie?"

"Well now that you are here...yeah!!"

"Lets go moma!!"

how could he not stand up for these wonderful beings

that he helped make?

its her.

I know but he is never going to leave her so I have to move on.

like he did.

we walked back to the bus and no one was there.

"hey frank I am going to check inside if anyone is there alright?"

"yeah sure I will head to Will and set these guys up with their stuff okay?"

"Thanks a bunch I just need to talk to mikey about something."

"see you in a bit."

I walked inside to find no one there but...a voice...I know that voice. it was singing that song...my song...

"I saw a film today oh boy

The English Army had just won the war

A crowd of people turned away

but I just had to look

Having read the book

I'd love to turn you on"

I walked towards it.

I couldn't help it.

it was the song that made me forget everything.

"Oh hey you."

"I am sorry Gee I didn't mean to."

"Its alright. just singing."

"Yeah...I noticed. I haven't heard that song since I left."

"Why?"

"Because you were the only one who can sing it to me and calm me down."

"really?"

he got up and walked over to where I was and got close.

"Yeah...its your voice...I would recognize it anywhere."

"And I would recognize yours anywhere."

he was giving me that look.

that look I haven't seen in years

"Please don't"

"Don't what?"

"Don't look at me that way."

"What way?"

"You know."

"I am sorry I can't help it."

thats red came to my cheeks

"there is something I haven't seen in such a long time."

"yeah..Gee please don't make this harder you have Ale-"

and something cut me off.

his lips cut me off.

oh god I have missed these lips.

the way they felt, tasted and how they danced with mine.

I have missed them.

stop!

I pulled away but he wouldn't let me.

he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him filling in any empty space between me and him.

his fragerance was intoxicating.

of cigerattes and caffine. oh my.

we soon ended up on a bunk.

it wasn't until I felt his hand travel up my thigh that i snapped back into reality

"No!"

I pulled him off me.

"Bells baby whats wrong?"

"We can't, I can't"

"Why?"

"Because you are with someone and I have our kids to think about."

"What? what is Alexis going to do?"

"Oh you have no idea what she is capable of doing in order for her to be with you forever."

"Please, she is harmless."

"She will do anything and make anyone who stand in the way leave by any means nescessary."

"Thats not true."

"Really? then how do you think she got me to leave?"

"What?"

and then I ran out and towards our bus.

I couldn't slip.

I can't let her hurt them.

I can't be with him.

but you love him

I know but the day I became a mom, I stopped thinking about myself