How Does It Go?..

Mm Should I Have Really Done This?

I kind of regret this book

I swear to god children that I am a happy child as well

Like oh my god I went through some of those chapters

I swear that I am not always sad

Just that sad chapters are probably easier to write about and maybe more interesting

And like that really recent chapter, where I have a couple of little messages based on things I've written in the past to what I've felt.. I swear I am ok

Holy crap though I feel so ridiculous with how much I've written about myself sometimes..

Anyone can read this book and ik it can be ridiculous at times and I am so sorry, my god

I really am capable of being happy and I'm sorry for every sad chapter and every sad chapter to come

The more recent times I talked about self harm, I swear I've only done it like twice and yea I'm very capable of being sad but I just have so many reasons to be happy and I know that..

There isn't a positive side to being sad..

And I hate being sad, literally is shit but I feel like I don't have time to be sad because my reasons for happiness aren't happy themselves

I need to make more of an effort

Holy crap I am so sorry

I'm not a hugely depressed child.. Yes I get sad but I'm not as bad as I seem most of the time.. I think..

Wow I'm sorry

I don't ALWAYS feel like that

Though that could just be how I feel rn

Idk I guess we'll find out

<3

-Arasnnie