How Does It Go?..

Silly

Sorry kinda irrelevant..

Just like me..

Sorry sorry..

But I think it is just me..

When I'm feeling sad..

In a sad mood

And someone calls me silly..

I just want to start crying..

I think that's just me..

Its weird and saddening.. Obviously..

I don't know why but it just makes me want to fall into their arms, cry and tell them how silly I am..

If that makes sense..

Jesus the image of me actually doing that with someone already makes me just want to cry..

Like cuddled into them.. Won't stop sobbing and saying stuff like.. 'I know I'm silly.. Why am I so silly?! So so so silly.. I think its a problem.. How do you deal with my silly?.. I don't know what to do..'

So yea..

Silly just.. Does something to me..

Almost like.. I connect with The person who calls me silly all of a sudden.. And it makes me sad to think that I am connecting with someone?

I think that's wrong..

I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...

When someone calls me silly.. It makes me more emotional.. Like I know that I'm silly.. I just want my sillyness to stop..

But at the same time it almost comforts me..

Extremely painful.. But idk..

Its gonna remind me of him now though..

I dont know..

Sorry..

-Arasnnie