How Does It Go?..

Maybe..

So hi everyone

There's a girl

She's very special.. I haven't been certain for a long while now how I feel about her..

But the thing is.. I think I know now..

And I think there's a reason seeing her makes me smile so much.. And the idea of hugging and kissing her makes me happy..

She's so special

And deserves so much.. I'm surprised she hasn't found someone.. But if we get together.. Then I'm not complaining..

There's just one problem.. Is that I'm really scared..

Of everything changing..

I know who I am in relationships

I'm gonna become jealous

And who I am is gonna change slightly.. if that makes sense?..

I love hugs and cuddles, and I'm gonna feel bad hugging other people in case it makes them jealous.

I'm gonna be thinking about other people they might like, a lot

Just agh I'm scared of having a repeat with my last relationship/s

Cause if I don't get enough of knowing that they love me then I'm just gonna end up being suspicious that they love someone else

I mean just cause in my opinion, why love me? When there are so many people u could love that are better

And sorry that was kinda sad, but yea, ik almost everyone thinks that at some stages if not always

Im scared of losing other relationships cause of any love relationship I get in to

Maybe I don't need a relationship though? Maybe we as teenagers shouldn't be so focused on love.. But if I see her with someone else I'm scared I'll regret not having been with her..

I'm really scared, don't know what to do

But. I think I really like her..

But I don't know what to do and helppppp..

-Arasnnie