How Does It Go?..

That Moment..

When you know something bad is about to happen

Or something bad has happened..

Everything is just scaring you..

Scares you more than ever..

You get up and walk with fast pace

Can feel yourself want to cry..

When you're alone

You hear the whimpers come from your throat

As your breathing starts to pick up pace..

But you don't cry

Its just a fit of hyperventilation..

And its almost painful..

You continue for a bit.. Maybe calm down after a while.. Before preparing yourself slightly..

Curling up in a ball.. Trying your hardest to be alone.. Not be weak but at the same time let yourself be weak..

A single tear falls..

But the tears don't always signify the level of hurt you feel..

Until eventually..

You watch it all unfold

And the tears do start flowing..

That guilty feeling of feeling dead inside..

You don't want to be weak, but for a moment you have to..

Because you can't control it..

You weren't necessarily expecting it..

But you just knew..

That moment.. When you know somethings about to fall apart..

-Arasnnie