How Does It Go?..

Random Rant..

Ah..

Nightmares are terrifying..

And memories are easily lost..

Nothing ever really seems worth it. Why not just have sex with everyone

and do drugs at any time

and drink alcohol through a cigarette

and lie like there's no point in the truth being told?

I mean. It's all so easily done.

At any moment in time you can control any thought or movement you go through with and it's amazing and scary and thrilling...

Sometimes your will is weak.. sometimes your mind is poisoned with the wrong answer.. sometimes you just want to do something wrong.

But you know what? Tomorrow you could make that conscious decision to shoot a man;

Or to starve yourself;

Or to walk in front of traffic.

That split second earlier. It'd be so simple. Like honestly does anyone realise fully, how in control we are of so much.

It's ridiculously interesting, intriguing and scary.

But then it turns sad.

Cause you realise there are people like:
"Tomorrow you could make that conscious decision to shoot a man"

And that persons decision makes another person suffer.

The decision they make with their control has another person lose their own control.

And so maybe, every time we make a decision, we take away another persons control.

This actually sounds plausible.

Honestly it does.

And maybe that's why some of us are indecisive.

We know we don't want to take away that opportunity for someone else to have control.

Cause after all. Who doesn't love being controlled? 

-Arasnnie