How Does It Go?..

Sleep

I'm the biggest fucking mess right now

Its okay ill be fine

Whatever

But I'm sorry I'm just so bad and I don't even think I should be anymore

RIP not crying

Been sobbing for like 30 minutes

Was crying before that too

I don't feel like I'll stop

My pillow has a tear stain about as big as My palm

My friend is about to come over and that will help

I'm not gonna try and explain why I feel so.. Inclined to sleep for all eternity

But I just can't help feel so shit right now

And I thought about cutting

But that will just make it worse

I don't know what to do

I'm so scared and it feels like another fake

It feels so fake now

And I feel like I had My heart break but I know I shouldn't

It literally feels so ridiculous but its how I feel

And I can't help it..

I wanna ask for help but I don't want u to worry cause I'll be better soon

Just the transition.. I remember something I said about 3.5 hours ago

And now this is in my head and I'm like.. I was so happy

I was so so happy

I literally remember my feeling of happiness

And even though it feels so fucking ridiculous I just feel hurt

And I'm sorry that I don't talk to u about it

It's just because I feel like such a pain and u don't need to hear about my problems

I just love u guys so much

Please.. Don't ever forget that..

Ever

You are my world

I love u so so so so much..

I will never leave u

And i promise to always love u..

-Arasnnie