How Does It Go?..

I Talk To Myself.. Oops

I thought I'd write a chapter on this because I was literally just talking to myself, and it was a pretty common conversation I'm supposedly having with the ex gf

Except when I used to have those kinda convos, we were still together

Anyway side tracked

I talk to myselffff

If u couldn't already tell..

And I'm generally acting out a potential conversation with myself and another person

And I think it kinda helps me honestly

Like I rehearse what I might say if that conversation ever came up

And it feels like I've said it a million times, so it doesn't affect me as much

Still can though cause of obviously the real thing is.. Well.. Real..

Most of the time when I talk to myself, it is a sad conversation, or just not a particularly happy one

And when I first started having these convos with my self, I would cry because they made me sad

I remember one time I got pretty extreme and it was many years ago

When I was with my ex bf

And we used to talk on facetime and apple messenger thingy

And I don't really know.. But maybe it was because I thought he didn't want me anymore.. Maybe it was after we broke up.. Idk

I was having a moment..

And it started ok

But then it eventually got to me crying on the floor.. And I was saying stuff as if I was making a video and about to kill myself.. And in the video was a lot of me talking to ex bf

Sorry please don't think of me as attention seeking

I completely don't know why that happened and it was ridiculous.. But obviously my imagination got a bit out of hand at the time.. I'm sorry

Anyway

That's an example

Sometimes it can get out of hand

And I talk to myself..

Quite a bit

-Arasnnie