How Does It Go?..

Numb

When I first heard

I was sad

Devastated.. Even more broken

Just felt another part of me smash into pieces

Felt like running to a room, hiding in a fort of pillows and just crying until I fell asleep, waiting for the pain to be over or for the old times to come back

I couldn't cry at the time, I almost did but I didn't

Its quite a few hours later now

And I just feel numb..

I feel like I should feel sad

Like I know I feel sad

But I just don't right now..

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A couple hours after I found out, I came home and told mother some basics, mainly so I could get pizza but you know..

After I said it out loud, my voice cracked and a few tears streamed down my cheeks

I try and conceal my crying though, idk why I just do

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While feeling numb right now

I know it'll hurt more tomorrow

I will get over it

But what hurts is that she turned into everything she promised she wouldn't..

-Arasnnie