JERSEY No. 6 (Completed)

Chapter 46. "Loving Cecelia Christina Calumpit"

Sasha left me doubt founded that I frustratingly cursing myself for being such a jerk. She's right. She's f*cking right about everything. Nasubsob ko ulit sa manibela ang mukha ko. I don't want this. I really don't.

"Shit! Shit! Shit!" paulit-ulit kong nahampas ang manibela sa harap ko. I still can't erase those damn memories that kept on hunting me down. Gustuhin ko mang kalimutan na lang lahat pero hindi ko magawa. I choose this! I choose to let go but somehow looking at her again, regret was now finally creeping inside my whole system. God knows how much I regret saying those words. But it was done and I had nothing to keep that away. Nasaktan ko na siya at hindi ko na mapapatawad ang sarili ko dahil don.

"Mahal ko siya. Tang'ina tol pero mahal na mahal ko si Cecelia."

Nasabunot ko ang buhok ko ng maalala ko ang sinabi ni Tyrone. That bastard. Hindi pa rin siya nagbabago. He really knows how to piss me off. I sigh as I deeply hold my breath and try to ease the pain once again. Sumasakit na naman ang ulo ko.

"What now? You knew your best friend Perry. He can have what he wants in just one snap. He love's your girlfriend so dearly and I'm afraid that he is your girlfriend's first love. Are you even aware of that? First love never dies."

Nasabunot ko ulit ang buhok ko.

"You want her back right? Then do something bago pa mahuli ang lahat. I'm not warning you but I'm just telling this for you to know that there's someone out there who's willing to love Cecelia more than you can capable of. Mas nakakatakot yon diba? Don't wait her to finally see that person. Kasi pag nangyari yon, I'm sorry to tell you but you can't have her back kahit magmakaawa ka pa. I'll assure you that. Wag mong hintaying mapagod siya sayo."

"Damn it." Mabilis akong lumabas ng kotse at tumakbo pabalik ng clinic. It's now or never. Bakit ba napaka gago ko? Hinahayaan ko si Cecelia sa kanya, hinayaan kong mapunta si Cecelia sa kanya. Shit!

Halos matuliro ako ng naka lock na ang clinic. Pilit kong kinalampag ang pinto but it was f*cking lock. Damn it! I run as fast as I could papuntang quarter. Every corner of this room was shouting how I miss everything about her. It was smelled like her. Hindi ko pagsasawaang pumunta dito habangbuhay. But she's nowhere to be seen. Kinakabahan na ako.

Sa gym? Right! But when I was about to run I heard a phone ringing. Napalingon ako sa sofa. There, a familiar phone was ringing loudly. Napahakbang ako palapit dito but a familiar pain struck into my heart as I saw who's the caller.

Cecelia was laughing while Tyrone was kissing her in the cheek. Ang saya-saya nilang tingnan sa picture. Shit! May nakalagay pang TYLER_GWAPO <3. The hell! Nag-init bigla ang ulo ko. Mabilis kong hinablot yon at pinatay. Kung pwede lang tong ihagis sa dingding ginawa ko na sana pero phone to ni Cecelia eh. Napatingin ako sa hawak ko at wala sa sariling ini-on ko ulit.