endless • kth

f o r t y f o u r

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"kim taehyung, you've been invited to lee joongi and nam ara's wedding..." his eyes traveled the printed inscription as his fingers traced her name. not even if he blinked twice, the letters would vanish. they were there. it was happening.

he felt as if his heart had been stabbed thousand of times. slowly he sat back on the chair as he felt his eyes getting cloudy. the pain on his chest was not to ignore, it was there. he pushed the invitation towards the desk and took his hand to his chest, trying to breathe slowly, hoping the pain would go away. drops of sweat were falling through his forehead, mixing with the tears coming from his green eyes. 

just thinking about it made his whole body ache. not so long ago, in fact that same morning he was with her in his apartment and she never mentioned anything about it, it certainly broke taehyung's heart.

even though he tried to find an excuse just to be on her side, he couldn't. there was no way he would excuse her desire to keep up with the wedding. taehyung felt it was a betrayal, as if she was betraying what they had.

the most obvious choice for taehyung was to skip the wedding. he knew that on joongi's eyes he was still his lawyer and probably, dear friend, but he couldn't attend a wedding in which the bride was the love of his life. just the thought of seeing ara marrying another man, especially if it's was a monster like lee joongi just made taehyung panic. 

he thought about calling her and demanding an explanation but if the wedding invitations had been sent already, he knew there wasn't too much to do. what hurt him the most was the fact she was at his house that morning and she didn't mention anything to him.

taehyung grabbed the invitation and gave it one last look. inside there was a two-people ticket and he chuckled bitterly at the image of it. he thought maybe joongi gave him those tickets so he could bring hoseok. taehyung couldn't help but think how naïve joongi was, when in reality that second ticket was more meant to be for the bride instead of hoseok.

but that morning he felt like trash. he couldn't sleep at all that night, he tried and even drank a whole whiskey bottle in hopes that that would knock him down so he could finally have a peaceful sleeping night but it was useless.

the hours passed slowly, even for him that's been around for so long. he had skipped work a few days in the past weeks. sometimes he would just wake up and look at himself in the mirror, hating the image of him and hating everything around him, just to grab his phone and text naeji he wouldn't be coming to work that day. the thought of going out of his house somehow gave him physical pain and he hated the idea. that would happen often, especially those weeks prior to the big event.

he listened his phone ringing against the cold metal of his nightstand. he sighed heavily as his eyes remained lost at the small lights in the sky, through the window. he hadn't realized it was night already. the phone kept ringing and taehyung counted that was the 12th call in less than 20 minutes.

rolling his eyes, he rolled over to the other side of the bed and finally grabbed the phone. a selfie of his blonde friend, smiling with his mouth full of cake appeared on the screen along with his name. he sighed, closing his eyes as he anticipated the nature of that call. without avoiding even more the situation he finally answered the call.

"hello-

"ahh thanks god! man... i've been calling you non-stop for the past hours, what's wrong with you? i thought you were dead! don't scare me like this, how can you not answer your phone? i called naeji, she said you wouldn't come today too, what's wrong? are you sick? are you going through some phase? are you going through puberty perhaps?"