Liam POV
I held her.
I held her like she was the last thing to hold onto.
But her cries, and how she tried to pull away.. It hurt me the most.
She moved away from me after a few moments, reassuring me she wasn't going to leave me behind again... Or maybe making sure I didn't leave her behind. It broke my heart to even think about it.
"Kelsey.." I whispered as she stood there, before she turned her head to me and slowly sat down in the sand. She didn't say a word but look back at the barely showing sunset.
I sat next to her, and she sighed heavily.
"You didn't need to come," she finally spoke softly. I furrowed my eyebrows.
"W-What? Why?" I replied in an uneven tone..Did.. did she move on? Just the thought made my stomach churn.
"Did.. you..move on?"
She turned to me. Her expression blank, her beautiful blue eyes making my heart flutter with beauty... but then they darkened and she tried to let out a small smile.
"Not even close," she breathed. I couldn't help but relax in relief.
"But I should ," she continued in sorrow again.. looking away.
I froze.
I tried to breath in deeply, feeling my soul shatter into a million pieces. I couldn't even get myself to open my mouth.
"Liam, you struggled to make it here didn't you?" she laughed softly, impurely. She turned to look at me when I still couldn't speak.. It's like I know what's going to happen next.
"You don't understand how happy.. how proud I am of you. You made it," her eyes watered, her voice cracking. I followed afterwards, her beauty blurred by my tears.
" But it's so difficult without you," I tried to reason with her, not waiting to hear her say those words. She grimaced, her pale skin glowing more under the darkened sky that awoke now.
"Just as difficult as it is with me, Liam," she turned to me again, wiping her tears off her face as she breathed in, composing her features.
"Liam, we can't be doing this anymore. I don't want you doing this." she began, sniffling as she looked away, letting her hair curtain over her face as she looked down at the sand. My breathing quickened.. I mean, how can I even think of..
"Of course we can, Kels. I'll take you with me. We can travel the world, anything.We'll make it work,"
"You can't take me with you, Liam. I-" she paused, looking away... before signing.
"I have to finish school.. and then I'm going to go ahead and head to uni," she never looked back at me. I gulped.. Wait.
"So you're better?"
There was a small silence.
"More than better." her voice was dark. The shots fired with the tone of her voice made me freeze as I held her shoulder, before I let it drop to my side and looked at the sea.
"Liam," I turned back to her, tears down her face.
"No matter how much we love each other, how much you deny that this will work out, it won't. It can't," she tried to say softly, understandingly. I shook my head, disagreeing.. but respecting her words.
"Then what now?" i barely got through my choked tone. She shook her head, her eyes saying it all.
We both knew it.
We'd have to break up.
Kelsey POV
His face was killing me. Seeing him in so much pain as I spoke... I wished.. I wished so many things.
"Then what now?" he choked, and his tone sent my heart into a hollow hole of pain. I shook my head, gazing into his brown eyes... He knows...And I couldn't bare it anymore.. I had to close my eyes.
"This is harder than I thought," i cried, sending my hands over my face. I then felt his hands wrap around me again, but this time, I let him. Just one last time..
"It doesn't have to be, Kels. Don't do this," Liam tried to hold in his cry. I shook my head violently.. I have to.
"Liam, you know just as well as I know that management doesn't know about us... and they shouldn't. You have.. a lot of fans.. that can make you happier," i tried to take the thought of all the other beautiful girls that could easily take my place.
He stood up, and I was forced to follow since he still huddled me close. He pulled his hands to my face, making me look straight into his eyes, his face inches from mine.
"Don't you dare even think that I'd want anyone else, I promise you that." he huffed in disbelief, flickering his wet eyes between my own. I kept my gaze on his, tears continuing, my make up destroyed.
There's only one way to break that promise... One way.. that will break me more than anything. That I will regret for the rest of my life. That I regret now.
"I don't love you anymore, Liam,"
His grip tightened against my face, as his eyebrows fell and furrowed against his face, confusion and disbelief as his mouth remained open. He scanned me, as I tried my hardest not to burst into tears.
Even the physical pain I feel will never add up to how mentally agonzing it is to tell that to someone you irrevocably have fell in love with. Especially your best friend.
"You-You're lying," he breathed.. And I knew I had to keep my eyes on him if i had to make it look believable.. I shook my head, cringing as his faced warped into a deeper sadness.
Hoping he knew what I was trying to do; say something I didn't mean... just so that leaving would be that much easier.. on us.. on him. It was no where easy for me.
It was then that he took a step back, and did the thing I hated myself for.
He turned around, and walked away.
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Kidney Donor// Liam Payne
Fanfiction"I hate you," he spit back. "Feeling's mutual," I shouldered him harshly for his words, his muscular figure so different from the nerd I met freshman year... He gave me a dark glare, turning as he continued to walk, the rest of his 'gang' staring...
