Kidney Donor// Liam Payne

《 Chapter 72 》Destroyed Me

LIAM POV

"I don't know what to do, I just dont!" Nialls breaths were panicked as he cried. I felt the little stings of slaps on my face and I sat up... the car roaring as they sped through the street.

Then I remembered...

Kelseys dead, Niall

Sirens here and there, voices unfamiliar, flashing lights, moans and cries, panic, chaos.

I erected up in seconds, my heart beating... the feeling of suffocation in the car. I had to get out.. I had to look for her.

"NO!" i didn't know what to do, and I pulled off my seat belt as we drove into that familiar place again...what she'd call her second home. The emergency.

"LIAM! NO!" Harry grabbed onto me as I tried to open the door to the still moving vehicle.

I couldn't see right, my eyes were welled with tears of fear.

"Kelsey!" I yelled, even though the door was still closed.

I looked at the front mirror, Zayns agonizing glare looking at my own desperation.

"Please!!" I yelled as I reached towards the handle.. Louis pushing me back by my torso.

Zayn pressed the brakes, and I slammed against the back of the drivers seat, before Zayn moaned a cry.

"I cant, guys," the sounds around me became a buzz as I felt my heart beat in my chest.

Before anyone could respond, I pushed through Louis, and jumped out into the deep drizzling rain.

I watched in horror, and felt like a chicken without a head.

Frantic, panicked, afraid.

I ran through the parking lot, cameramen already on site... was I the last to know Kels was hurt?

I pushed through the people, my breaths heavy against my chapped lips that stayed ajar, the feeling painful in my heart,my eyes dry from lack of blinking.

"Kelsey!!" I yelled again, my voice trembling as my hands searched the doors for the knobs.

"KELSEY!!" I cried now when I saw the receptionist grimace at me.

Just that simple eye contact made her wince, and she turned her head to the hall.

I ran, the weight of my own mind making my feet heavy, my hands trembling with fear.

I gazed ahead, and searched for Essie... and i looked around the room at the people waiting...but what my eyes fell onto was worse.

I froze ten feet away, my ears ringing.

Please be dreaming.

"Liam," Mr.Diamonds was pale white, his eyes bloodshot, his hair tangled as if he had pulled it hard enough.

I let my lips murmur what I could handle.

"Kelsey?" I was barely audible to myself, but i know he was able to read my lips.

He looked down at the ground then, eyes cringed as he shed a tear, the grimace agonizing... and I sucked in a thousand pounds of air.

He shook his head then... and his eyes darted to the room that fell open, a nurse rushing out.

This is all a dream, right? It has to be...

My feet, sinking into the tiled floor, i forced to drag up to the door frame, eyes blurry as tears fell on their own.

But i didn't see the face i dreaded to see the most....except, it was worst.

What... what I saw....it..

It destroyed me.

There in front of me, a lifeless body behind the doctors...and the hand that slid to the side, the pale white skin... but that wasn't what had gotten to me..

It was the ring, the shining diamond ring that I knew so well, stressed about so well, was so excited about what that ring would bring us...

The ring that was fitted perfectly on the cold pale fingers that were muted of any sign of life.

That's what destroyed me.

It killed my every thought and hope, disintegrated the world i was finally enjoying...

And there it is.

The shock.

The sadness.

The pain.

The grief.

I couldn't anymore.

I couldn't let it sink in.

She wasn't gone.

She couldn't be.

She wont. It's not possible. It never was possible. ..

...right?

I felt as if i had just been beheaded, and i had no control over anything anymore.

I couldn't talk, i couldn't move, i couldn't..understand.

"Liam!" Someone yelled.

And then, the world spun, time slowed, and my heart stopped,

I died. I must have had to. I hope i did.

Okay, I'm so sorry for the super short chapter.

This year is hectic... so i won't be updating often. My grammar and spelling is more shittier than usual. Of course.

Anyways, if you really wanted to have a new update, i think i get really motivated by comments and support... so if you can do that, thanks so much,

Hope i see you guys soon enough! And thanks for sticking along!

Love you, lovelies!

~Y