I would (A Justin Bieber Fanfiction)

Chapter 21

Justin's P.O.V

I couldn't sleep last night and I canceled all my studio sessions. All I did was stare at the ceiling. I can't cry I can't move. I feel like I'm floating in a false sense of reality as if everything has stopped and I don't have enough willpower to make it move again. I am lost in a web ongoing confusion. And I just can't seem to break through it. It feels as though my whole chest is being compressed and I can't seem to push it off. I close my eyes and I see her. I see Kate. I see her in everything around me and It hurts. It's the worst pain I've ever ever felt. She's in a better place they say. She's happy they say. If she loved me which she did how can she be happy away from me? How can this be my reality?

Selena's P.O.V

I pull myself off of Justin's couch and force myself to Justin's room. I find him in bed in the same position I left him last night. I shake him slightly but he doesn't respond. His eyes are lost in a cloud of despair. The love that once filled his heart is now gone replaced with a sadness that none can repair. I feel like it's not real. Like she'll come bursting through the door. And she'll just laugh and say she was somewhere. But it's been days since we went to the police.

At first Justin was in denial. He refused to accept that Kate is no longer alive. But then one day he just changed and completely lost it.

***Flash back***

"I'm hungry." Taylor says setting her pencil down.

"Me too, I have some leftover spaghetti in the fridge we can eat that." Justin agrees setting down his pencil and getting up. Justin Taylor and I are trying to write a song for his new album. So far we're having no luck.

I pull the bowl of spaghetti out from the fridge and set it in the microwave. I look to left and see Justin setting the table. I feel a tug at my heart as I see him set down another plate for a fourth person. He's still in denial. He doesn't think she's dead.

"Justin there's only three of us stupid." Taylor jokes grabbing the fourth plate.

"Kate lives here too." Justin says snatching the plate out of her hand. Taylor takes a deep breath and says.

"Justin, Kate is dead. She's not going to be eating with us." Taylor says very slowly and reaches for the plate. Justin brings the plate to his chest and glares at her in defiance.

"She's still alive. We have to have the table set for her just in case she shows up while we're eating." Justin says and sets the plate back on the table. The microwave beeps and I quickly open the microwave and wince as the hot bowl burns my hand. I grab a napkin and pull the bowl out.

"Justin just put the damn plate away!" Taylor yells. I want to yell at them to stop fighting but it won't help. Taylor will just argue that I'm taking Justin's side. It's better to just let it pass.

"I will not put the plate away." Justin yells back seething with anger.

"Putting a plate on the table for her, leaving her toothbrush in the bathroom, keeping a spot open on the couch for her isn't going to bring her back! She is dead. She's gone. You're never going to see her again!!" Taylor screams at him and grabs the plate and throws it against the wall.

"Taylor y-" I start to say but Justin stops me. Something changes in him and he completely loses it. He starts cursing at Taylor and flips the table over. I can't even understand what he's saying he's screaming it out so fast. I try to yell at him to make him calm down but he just gets even angrier. He yanks his wedding ring off his finger and brings it over to the sink. He turns on the garbage disposal. And shoves his hand down the drain. I let of scream and run up to him and pull his hand out of the drain. I grab a washcloth and wrap it around his hands to stop the bleeding. I look into his eyes and his expression scares me even more than what he did to his hand. He doesn't look upset or scared. I've seen that expression once before. I saw it in Kate's eyes when Justin found her and brought her home.

"Selena, the ambulance is on their way." Taylor says her voice shaking.

"Okay, uh Justin elevate your hand." I say.

** end of flashback**

Luckily there wasn't any extreme damage to his hand but it's wrapped up now and he can't play guitar or piano until it heals completely. But I don't even know if he's ever going to play again. No matter how many times Scooter yells at him to get out of bed and come to the studio or just do something besides lay around Justin doesn't listen. He just stares him without an expression.

I hear the door bell ring and I run over to the door and open it. It's Scooter.

"Scooter he's not going to talk to you." I say and start to shut the door. But Scooter shoves his foot between into the crack between the door and the wall.

"I'm not here to talk to him. I brought someone to talk to talk to him." Scooter says and beckons a woman with long blonde hair over to the door.

"Selena this is Sophia." Scooter says.

"Hi, nice to meet you." I say and extend my hand to her. She shakes it smiling.

"Nice to meet you too." She replies. I bring Sophia and Scooter into the living room.

"So, do you know Justin?" I ask.

"Yeah, we met in Stratford. We dated before he got really famous and moved to L.A." She replies.

"Oh yeah, Justin told me about you." I say which is a complete lie because Justin never told me about Sophia.

"Oh." Is all she says.

"I think Sophia will be able to get Justin talking again." Scooter says. "She'll be staying here for a couple weeks."

"You mean here. Like at Justin's house." I ask clarifying.

"Yeah, so you don't have to stay here." Scooter says.

"Uh oh okay." I say a little taken aback. How is some random girl Justin dated years ago going to lessen the pain in heart so he'll start functioning again.

"So maybe it's best if you leave today. Like now." Scooter says.

"Uh I don't-"

Scooter cuts me off. "It's not like there's any reason for you to be here." He says and gives me a look. God knows what the look means.

"Oh okay I guess I'll just go." I say and get up. I grab my purse off the kitchen counter and leave slamming the door behind me. I can't believe Scooter just kicked me out of a house that isn't even his. I angrily slam my car door and pull out of the drive way. I literally want flip off every paparazzi waiting outside of the gates. But, I have younger fans and I don't think their parents would take too kindly to that kind of thing.

I pull into my front lawn and gasp as I see an extremely hot guy at my front door. I get out of the car and walk up to him all feeling of angry vanishing. There's something special about this guy.

"Uh can I help you?" I ask smiling at him.

"Uh yeah, I'm sorry. I had to talk to you. So I jumped the fence."

"Oh wow. Uh are you a fan."

"I'm not a hater." He replies flashing me smile showing off his perfect teeth.

"That's good to hear." I say smiling back at him.

"I need to talk to you about Kate I'm her brother Alex."

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