I would (A Justin Bieber Fanfiction)

Chapter 29

Sometimes the worst things in life bring something amazing. Like a silver lining. I keep waiting for that silver lining. I keep waiting for someone to fix it. And that's where my problem is. No one is going to fix my life for me. I have to fix it myself. There is no silver lining until you make your own. I keep waiting for someone to fix this. But I have to fix it myself. I need to write my own ending. I can't keep waiting. I think maybe I keep waiting for someone to come and help me because I would do the same for them. But no one is going to save me. I want to escape this prison that holds me in. I keep waiting for someone smash the glass and free me. But no one is going to free me. I'm stuck. I'm not strong enough to do this alone. I'm insignificant. I will die and return to the earth as dust. Blow away in the wind along with everything I have done. I wish I could change that. But I am just a person, searching for something more. But this prison holds me in and I can't seem to get out. I look around and I see glass walls. I pound on the walls but they won't break. I pounded on this world hoping someone would notice. But no one did. And now I'm stuck in this prison. I will die here and no will ever know. This is the end. You have to write your own ending. But you also need to have the strength to do so. I'm so filled with emptiness. The world will not forgive me for what I've done. And I will never forgive this world for what it's done.

It feels like time has stopped and all the things that made feel hurt are gone and for a split second I feel free. And then the pain comes it's like nothing I've ever felt before. But then it's gone. And I'm fine, I'm fine.

I open my eyes and find myself in my old room. In the old apartment I used to live in. Why am I here? I walk into the living room and see my mom collapsed in the middle of the living room. I lean down beside her and to my horror she's dead.

I stand up blinking away tears. There's nothing I could have done. The door opens and in walks a girl and some guy who's face I can't see. The guy pulls her into him and I see that it's Max. But he's dead. How can he be here. And it gets even worse when the girl and Max start to hardcore make out right in front of me.

"Uh excuse me." I blurt out and they don't stop. I don't think they can see me... The girl pulls away smiling and walks towards the couch. Her smile vanishes as she sees my mom on the ground.

"Mom!" She yells falling to the ground. Why she calling her mom. She's my mom!

"Max call the police now!" She yells lifting my mom off the floor.

"What happened?" He asks lifting the phone up to his ear.

"I think..." She says her bottom lip trembling. "I think she overdosed." She says and gestures to the white powder on the table. Max looks at the white powder and ends the call.

"We need to leave." He says.

"What? Why?" She asks wiping the tears off of her cheeks.

"If the police come here and they see the cocaine. We'll go to jail."

"Max no! It'll be fine! We can tell them it's just my moms."

"Kate.." He whispers pulling her away from my mom. What? Why is she Kate? I'm Kate! Why is she here? This is my life. "We just did two lines before we came here. They'll test us and we'll go to jail. We need to leave now."

"But my mom!" She sobs.

"There's nothing we can do. We have to go." He says pulling Kate away from the couch. I follow them into my room and I watch Kate and Max pack up belongings that were once mine and leave through fire escape. I watch them run down the alley way. And I feel a tear slip down my cheek. What on earth is going on.

I close my eyes and when I open them I'm in Justin's house. I walk into our bedroom and see Justin in bed with someone with blonde hair. Tears sting my eyes. Did he just replace me while I was abducted. Oh my gosh. All the memories flood back into my head. I... Killed myself. I'm dead. That's why no one can see me. But that still doesn't explain Max and the girl.