This isn't what I want

chapter 9

** Emily's thoughts **

I feel like I'm dying. I'm losing my awareness of the room around me. For a moment, I think I can feel someone holding my hand, but that's ridiculous. I'm definitely imagining things. Matthew told me all those years ago that if you believe in God, death shouldn't be feared. I pray he's right.

** Garcia's POV **

Oh my poor kitten's been taken. I bet she's been taken by Will. But he's not going to get away with it, I say to myself. I will look for any trace, any left at all, to find her. I will not stop.

Morgan's giving me a cup of tea, but I don't want tea. I want JJ.

"Morgan, not now. Now isn't the time for tea. JJ's been taken by her abusive husband, who is certainly going to be fuming since she went to hospital. Everyone is going to know about him. Do you know what this means? This means JJ is in terrible danger and there's the possibility that she won't make it back ..." I cut off and sob into his shoulder. He's warm and he puts his arms around me for a moment.

"Baby girl, it's going to be ok. We will find this son of a bitch and we will make sure he goes away for ever so that nothing will ever harm our team again."

"I know. I know. It's going to be fine." I say to myself over and over again.

** Morgan's POV **

I'm lying to myself just as much as to Baby Girl. I don't know whether Jaydge is going to be okay. I don't know if we will find him. I don't know if he will go away for ever. I don't know if he's going to harm the team again.

Garcia sips at her tea and her fingers slowly move over her laptop before resuming to usual top speed. Her eyes open wide as a message pops up on her screen.

"Guys!" She calls out, her voice shaking so much.

I hold her hand as we gather round her computer.

You'll never see her again. She's a whore. A slut. She's nothing. She will be punished. The ultimate sacrifice for all of your sins.

"NO!" I hear Reid cry out in a strangled voice.

I can't do anything for him. He's breaking down and crying and he understands the danger JJ's in. But I can hear doctors rushing to the room next door, and I follow them inside.

One of them is giving Emily CPR. Her machine is blaring. No heartbeat.

"No! Come on, Emily. Please stay with us."

** Emily's thoughts **

I can hear Matthew calling my name. I reach out to him.

"Emily, you're here."

"Yes, I am. How are you?"

He ignores my question.

"Emily, you have to go back. A friend is in trouble. Jennifer? She's not going to make it without you. You need to go back and be there for her. And her team. Her family. Her son."

"What? You aren't making any sense, Matthew."

"Jennifer is in trouble. She's being held by her husband. Her team are trying to locate her, but are failing. She doesn't have long, Em."

I suddenly realise. I need to go back to save her, if I can.

"It's alright, Em. I'll be here when it's your time. I'll be waiting." Matthew says with a comforting smile.

I nod and close my eyes.