This isn't what I want

chapter 25

** Reid's POV **

I can't stop shaking with fear and anger as we drive back to Virginia. Hotch is going full speed, but I'm worried that we won't make it in time.

"How far?"

"50 miles."

"We won't make it. It takes an hour and a half on average, and we've already been driving for half an hour. JJ's not got that much time left."

"Reid, calm down. It's not going to help her, worrying about her. You need to concentrate."

I take some deep breaths, but still can't get her off my mind. I think back to when I first saw her.

** Flashback**

I was sorting through a stack of books on my desk, when a young woman walked in, carrying some files.

"Excuse me, where can I find Aaron Hotchner?"

I looked up, right into her eyes, and was taken by her beauty. Her blue eyes shone like stars, and her hair flowed over her shoulder.

"He's in the conference room at the moment, debriefing."

"Can I wait with you then?" She asked with a smile, and I nodded.

"So how long have you been her for?"

"5 months, 3 weeks, two days, 13 hours and 39 minutes. How about you?"

"My first day. I'm Jennifer Jareau. All my friends call me JJ."

"Oh, I'm Dr Reid. Dr Spencer Reid."

"It's nice to meet you." She said, holding her hand out.

Despite my germ phobia, I decided to shake her hand. It was warm and soft, and I longed to kiss her. She was looking right at me. Her voice was so silky, and she was so beautiful.

"Anyway, I'm going to go. I'll see you around?" She asked.

"Sure." And I watched her walk away, he hair swaying from side to side as she climbed the stairs. She really was beautiful.

"Reid? Reid?" I can hear someone calling my name, and I open my eyes.

"Sorry, I was just thinking about something. What is it?"

"Just checking you were alright. We've got another half hour to go, without traffic."

"Right." I say absent-mindedly and look out of the window again. I can see her eyes smiling back, which comforts me, and I try to concentrate on getting her back safe.

** JJ's POV **

I wake up, and I'm not in hospital. It's dark, and I'm strapped to a bed. From what I can make out, the room is empty except for me and the bed. I don't have the energy to scream out, but I hear footsteps coming so I yell.

"Hey, calm down." It's Will.

I don't want him anywhere near me. I don't want him to touch me. To kiss me. To rape me.

"Will, what are you doing?" As he climbs on top of me.

"You want this. I know you do. Your friend told me."

"Who? What? No, of course I don't want this. I never wanted you. I loved you, but I never wanted any of this, Will."

He stops, and suddenly he pushes hard against me so I can't breathe.

"You will do exactly as I say, or else your friend dies. The pretty brunette. The one who watches over you at night. And I will do it personally."

"No. Don't you dare touch her. If you do, I will kill you."

He just smiles. "Well, I don't think you're in any state to do so, darling." He gets up and leaves.