This isn't what I want

chapter 44

** JJ's POV **

My entire body aches after being held in a cage for goodness knows how long. There's no windows or clock, and the lights are constantly low. It's driving me crazy, and I'm so thirsty. Everything I try to look at seems blurry and I can't be sure about what I'm seeing. I'm not even sure whether what I can actually remember is real. It's all messed up.

"Jennifer!" The voice yells out, making me jump.

There's the sound of the cage door opening, and I want to run at him, to hurt him. But my legs aren't strong enough and I just collapse in his arms. My brain hurts so much, there's a sharp point driving right into my skull.

All I know is that he's carrying me somewhere before I close my eyes.

** Reid's POV **

It's been a week. There's been no sign of her. No trace of her anywhere. No police reports or investigations. Absolutely fucking nothing.

I haven't slept since she was taken. I can't. Every time I shut my eyes all I can see is her. I should have done more to protect her. I shouldn't have let her go.

"Spencer?" Emily asks me and I look up. "Spencer, you'll go crazy with all the what ifs and the things you think you could have done. Nothing you could have done would change the situation. It isn't your fault. It's the unsub's fault. And right now, we need to focus to try and catch him."

"I know. I just want her back, Emily. I love her." I can't hold the tears back, I just cry in her arms.

** Emily's POV **

It's heartbreaking to see the team falling apart without her. Garcia has barricaded herself in her office. Morgan isn't talking to anyone. Spencer isn't sleeping. Rossi won't leave the conference room. Hotch is either making phone calls or in his office. And me? I don't know how I'm coping. I guess it's because I know the best thing for JJ is to try to figure out who the unsub is and where he's holding her. And for what purpose.

Garcia hasn't found any trace of Peter Gorgovitz, and his online status is inactive. Both him and JJ seem to have just disappeared off the face of the earth. Nobody anywhere has any news about anything.

Peter doesn't appear to have any criminal history, and seems to be the perfect family man. Photos of Francesca and his wife. But why the collection of guns? He has no military background, and no obvious connections to an arms dealing ring. So where did he get them from?

That's what's really bugging me. And then my phone buzzes. And it buzzes again. It's Garcia. She's sent me a string of messages.

Emily you have to see this.

Emily it's JJ.

Emily what has he done to her?

Emily!!!!!

She's sent me a link. It's an online Web page.  And when when I open it, I almost drop my phone in shock.

The unsub's created a live online blog post with a live feed of JJ. And something's definitely wrong. She's not herself. But what's more disturbing is the fact that the unsub has created an online website posting about this. And all of his other victims. And the latest picture  (excluding videos) is one of JJ. Her eyes are pale and her skin is slightly jaundice.

She's ill.