This isn't what I want

chapter 11

** Hotch's POV **

I can't believe she said yes. I'm so happy and sad at the same time. It's so bittersweet. I know how much JJ would have loved to see this moment. She knew about my feelings, and on several occasions told me to go for it. 

Then I remember I have to tell Emily.

"Emily, there's something you need to know..."

"Hotch, is it about JJ?"

"She's gone, Emily. We can't find her. Garcia's trying, but her, and Will have disappeared."

I look at Emily, and her eyes look away. I know she's crying. She turns back and her beautiful eyes are glistening with tears.

"I have to go."

"Hey, Em, take it easy. You've just woken up from a coma or something. You need to rest up."

"Hotch, I'm fine. Right now, JJ needs us. All of us." Emily argues with me. 

She stands up, grasping on to my arm for support, and reaches out for her clothes, which are folded on the side table.

"Please, Aaron. Just help me." She pleads with me.

I sigh and help her get dressed. My eyes hover over the scars on her stomach. She senses me freeze and whispers in my ear.

"It's alright. They disappear after a while."

"I know, it just makes me think of Doyle all over again."

"Don't, Aaron, that was years ago. Well, only about 4, but still. It's in the past, so we should just leave it there. Come on, we need to find JJ."

** Garcia's POV **

When Hotch and Emily walk in together, my heart sings. It's the only nice thing that's happened so far this week, this month even.

"Oh, my goodness you guys."

"Finally, someone made a move." Morgan says with a wink.

I give him a friendly punch and go to hug Emily.

"Oh, Emily, are you sure you're alright? You've only just woken up."

"Don't try, Garcia, I can't talk her out of it." Hotch says with a smile.

Wow, Emily really has changed him. Despite the circumstances, he's glowing. I'm happy for him, I truly am, except...

"Hey, Baby Girl, what's up?" Morgan asks me as I start to cry.

"I'm sorry, I really am. I'm happy for you, but I can't help thinking of Jaydge. She's all alone, missing us. I miss her so much."

Reid's eyes are shining with tears again, and  I can't help but hug him.

"Reid, she'll be okay. I know she will. We just need to keep searching."

** somewhere in Virginia **

** JJ's POV **

My head hurts, but that doesn't even come close to the pain in my abdomen. A sharp pain running from my chest down to my pelvis.

I can hear movement nearby, but it's very dark and I can't see at all. I'm guessing this is Will. His punishment.

"Will, I'm sorry!" I yell out. "What is it you want?"

Suddenly the lights turn on and he is standing in front of me wielding a sharp knife.

"Why, darling wife. I want you." He says, and he plunges the knife into my stomach.