This isn't what I want

chapter 33

** Four weeks later, JJ's POV **

I can't get out of bed, the pain from my stomach is too much. As I roll over, I immediately feel the wet patch in the sheets. Shit. I fumble for my phone, and speeddial Emily.

"Em?"

"Hi, what's up?"

"I think my water's broken. I think I'm going into labour."

** Emily's POV **

Oh my goodness, her baby's coming. I hurry over to her house, and run inside to her bedroom. JJ's sitting up in bed, holding her large bump.

"Emily, I feel the contractions. I don't know if I'm going to make it to hospital. I can feel it pushing." She pants in pain.

"Alright, you're going to be fine." I say as I dial 911.

"911 what's your emergency?"

"My friend is going into labour, she's not going to make it to hospital. I need an ambulance but I need to know what to do."

"Ma'am, tell your friend to calm down. To breathe deeply, in through the nose, and out through the mouth. I'm going to talk you through the delivery, you'll need some clean towels."

** 3 hours later **

After pushing and screaming, JJ's baby was born. A baby girl. She was a bit small, being one month early, but she had a strong pair of lungs, all right. At the hospital, JJ was being checked over. 

"Hey, she's beautiful, you know." I say, holding JJ's baby.

"I haven't given her a name yet. I don't know what it should be. Any ideas?"

"Many, but it should come from you, as the mother." I say, handing JJ her baby.

I watch in admiration as JJ slowly rocks her baby, her smile widening. JJ's a real natural mother, and I can see she truly loves her baby.

"Welcome to the world, Aria Emilia Jareau." She whispers, giving her a kiss on her forehead.

"It's perfect." I say, and JJ nods.

The team come and gather around JJ as she holds her baby. Hotch looks like he's going to burst with happiness, and Penelope is beside herself.

"Oh my goodness, that is the cutest baby girl I've ever seen. Can I hold her?"

"Sure." JJ carefully passes her to Garcia. "Aria, this is Penelope. Penelope, would you like to be Aria's godmother?"

Garcia smiles so widely and wipes a tear from her eye. "Yes, of course I would. As fairy godmother it will be my duty to give her everything she asks for and spoil her."

We all laugh as Garcia will stay true to her promise. 

"Well, Aria, you're going to be the luckiest girl in the world." JJ laughs.

** Hotch's POV **

As JJ holds her baby, I look over at Emily. I can see in her eyes she wants to feel like this. She wants to be proud, holding her own precious baby in her arms.

"Um, Emily, shall we get some coffee?" I ask her.

She nods, and we walk down to the cafeteria. 

"Aaron, I want to talk to you about something."

"Emily, please can I just say something first?"

"Sure, what is it?"

"Emily, I love you. I've loved you since forever. We've gone out, but I know you want more. You want to start a family, have a stable relationship. I just want to say I can give you that, if it's what you want. I want to spend my whole life with you, as my friend, my partner, my love."

"Aaron," She takes my hand with a smile. "Aaron, it's alright. I want all of those things, but not right now. I want it when the time is right."

She gives me a deep kiss on the lips before we walk to get coffee. She's so beautiful, but I'm still scared we won't have all the time we want. I don't want to push her, I just want to spend all of time with her.

"Move in with me." I blurt out before I can stop myself. "There's plenty of room. We can take things slow, but I'd love for you to move in with me."

"Really? You want to?"

"Yes, Emily."

"Then yes, I will move in with you." And she kisses me again.