This isn't what I want

chapter 27

** Hotch's POV **

We pull up outside an old farmhouse, and draw our guns.

"Morgan, Reid, take the back. Rossi and I have the front."

As we move into position, I hear a scream. It's a scream that made my blood stop. My heart stop.

"EMILY!" I hear another voice cry out, but it's faint.

"Move!" I call, and I hear the back door being kicked open as Rossi and I open the front.

My eyes adjust to the dark hallway, there's nobody downstairs.

"Clear." We all call out.

And then there are footsteps upstairs. As we approach the top of the stairs, I see several blood splatters, and a pool of blood outside a locked door. Morgan runs at it, kicking it wide open, and we all burst in side.

"Emily? No, Emily. Stay with me." I whisper as I rush to her side.

I heard a gun shot as we entered, and turn to see Morgan holding his gun, aimed at Will. He's on the ground, a puddle of blood forming at his head.

"I need paramedics immediately." I say and find a towel to press against his head.

Morgan shot Will at the side of the head, but he's breathing so I think he's just unconscious. The bullet skimmed his right temple, he'd be alright.  But Emily? I'm not sure.

There's a knife lying on the floor, covered in blood. Emily's lying on the bed, blood pouring out of a large gash running across her abdomen. Her hands are cold as I untie her arms, and I beg for her to stay with me.

"Emily, you know how much I love you. I don't know what I'm going to do without you here."

I swear her eyes open for a fraction of a second, but then I look back and they are still clamped shut. I want to help her, but I don't know how. All I can do is hold her hand and hope she doesn't die.

I can hear Reid searching the house for JJ, but he cries out, "Clear!" And my heart sinks. If this is the state he left Emily in, one can only guess whether JJ is still alive. He runs back to the room as the sirens of an ambulance ring out. Paramedics run inside and take over from Morgan, who was looking after Will.

"Help, somebody help me." I scream.

A medic rushes over to Emily.

"Sir, what's her name?"

"Emily. Emily Prentiss."

"Emily? Can you hear me?"

As the medic tends to her, I leave to get some fresh air. Rossi joins me by the car, and I spill out everything.

"Dave, I can't lose her. I've loved her for so long and only just told her how I feel. What happens if she doesn't make it? What do I do? After everything, all I want is for Emily to be alright. And JJ. Rossi, there's no sign of her anywhere. We have to find her." I stutter whilst trying to supress my tears and anger.

"Aaron, she's a fighter. She'll be alright. We have to think, where would he take JJ?"

"Somewhere close. Her house maybe?"

"You mean her old house?" 

"Yes, somewhere he knows."

We call out for Reid and Morgan and quickly drive to JJ's old house. Reid is restless during the drive.

"Hotch, what happens if... if..." He can't finish the sentence without crying.

I don't know what to say because I know what he feels. I feel it too.