This isn't what I want

chapter 58

** JJ's POV **

It's freezing, and my belly hurts. Emily insisted on staying with me for a while. We're in an old abandoned cottage near the border of Maryland. It's 8 am, and I look over at Emily, who's sleeping on the couch, which she positioned over the doorway. I stand up, and the floor creaks loudly, waking Emily up.

"Hey, what's wrong?" She asks me, rubbing her eyes and sitting up.

"Nothing, I promise. It is rather cold though." I say truthfully.

She looks around and sees the open grate in the corner of the room.

"Come on then, let's light a fire." She says rather cheerfully, and bends in front of the grate.

There's a stack of wood in a basket, and she builds up a fire, before taking a lighter out of her pocket.

"Emily, I thought you gave up smoking. Why the lighter?"

"I may have stopped smoking, but the lighter comes in handy." She says with a smile.

Soon the room glows yellow from the fire, and we sit together on the sofa, facing the flames. 

"Do you think Reid is mad at me?" I ask Emily suddenly.

I look at her, and I can see she's thinking hard.

"He is, isn't he?"

"Look, Jaydge, I'm sure he'll understand why. But you did leave him less than 12 hours after agreeing to marry him." 

When she explains it, I realise what I've done. I begin to break down and cry on her shoulder, because I feel so terrible.

"Em, I left the love of my life because I was scared of my ex-husband. What kind of a person does that make me?"

"JJ, it shows you're human. It shows you love him, and you'll do anything to protect him." Emily says calming, stroking my hair.

Suddenly, I feel a sharp pain. And again. And again. I recognise the pain.

"Emily, I think I'm going into labour!" I cry out.

** Hotch's POV **

I read Emily's note this morning and immediately I thought something was up. And then I read the news headline and I realised that JJ was in a lot of danger. So I gathered the team together. Including Reid. I knew he wouldn't want to leave home, but I needed him here.

But when he came, I realised he just wasn't thinking straight. But he didn't want to think of anything apart from JJ.

"So, what are we looking for?" Reid asked.

"Twelve sexual sadists, one of them being JJ's ex-husband. Will's probably going after JJ, so have Garcia look at search history on phones and computer within the DC area, Will knows JJ well enough to realise she won't leave the state." I said.

"What about her Mom? Shouldn't we put Mrs Jareau and JJ's two children into protective custody?" Rossi suggested.

After the meeting, Reid looks so despondent, so I go to talk to him.

"Hey, what's going on in there?" I ask, gesturing towards his head.

"I can't protect her Hotch. She's so vulnerable out there, and she's pregnant. She's due in a week!" He practically yells at me. I can see how hurt and upset he is, and I just want to find JJ, and catch Will, and keep my team safe.

Reid hands me a crumpled piece of paper, and I realise it's the note JJ left him. As I read it, I understand why Reid's so upset. 

"She's not going to come back. Not until Will is completely out of the way." He cries.

"And he will be. He's not going to get away with it ever again. Not after what he's been doing." I say, and inside I vow to myself not to rest until he is put away forever with no prospect of seeing daylight ever again.