This isn't what I want

chapter 19

** JJ's POV **

My hand shakes as I put the phone down. I quickly pull on the first thing that comes out of my cupboard, a sweatshirt and tracksuit. I sweep my wet hair out of my eyes and slowly look out of the window again. He's still there, I wasn't imagining him.

And he's banging on my door. He's yelling out. He's mad. He's fucking mad.

"Open the fucking door you bitch! Open it right now! I swear to God this isn't over."

He's banging his fist on my door, and it's shaking. He's going to break it. And he's going to come here. Suddenly, there is a sharp pain that runs right across my abdomen. I cry out in pain, tears springing to my eyes, and through the blur I see him look up at the window.

"Open the fucking door, Jennifer."

I can't say anything, and the pain is just getting worse. I think I'm going to be sick.

** Emily's POV **

My hand grips my gun so hard that my knuckles are white. Aaron lays a hand on top and gives my hand a friendly squeeze.

"We'll get there."

I nod silently as a tear rolls down my cheek onto my lap. I have to be strong for JJ.

Aaron suddenly stops the car and I look out of the window. The sun is blinding but I can make out the figure of somebody leaning out of the window of a tall house.

"JJ!" I scream out, hurriedly rushing out of the car.

I don't care if the rest of the team are still getting out of the car, I have to see if she's okay. There's no sign of Will, but the front door is wide open, so I sprint inside.

"JJ? It's Emily!"

I barely get the words out of my mouth before something knocks me to the floor, the force pushing the air out of my lungs. As I gasp for breath, I can see Will running up the stairs. I struggle to get to my feet, and I reach out for support. I can feel Aaron holding me up as I hold my chest, still trying to breathe.

"Em, are you alright?"

"Fine. Where's JJ?" I breathe back.

"Morgan and Reid have gone upstairs. Will decided to run, Rossi's tailing him now. Come on, take it easy."

"I'm fine, honestly."

"No, you're not. Have you seen your head?"

For the first time, I feel an intense pain in my head, and I feel my forehead. When I withdraw my fingers, they are covered in scarlet blood.

"Em, please." Aaron's eyes are pleading with me, and I sigh.

"Fine. Let's go."

Aaron calls for an ambulance, and Reid comes back with news. His face is pale. Unnaturally so.

"Reid, what is it?"

He swallows before answering.

"The, um, the hospital didn't realise it, but JJ was pregnant with twins. And, um, the second twin is still alive. JJ's going through morning sickness."

"What?"

"Emily, JJ's still going to have a baby. A girl."

I don't know how to respond. JJ didn't want a baby, let alone twins. I'm not sure she's ready to look after the baby after trying to put Will behind her. I don't know if she will want this baby.