This isn't what I want

chapter 35

** One month later, Emily's POV **

Back to work, and we gather round the table. JJ's sent us another case and it's a series of abductions in the city. She's not allowed out in the field, but she stays at the BAU with Garcia and Aria. Aria spends most of the day asleep, and keeps JJ up at night, but JJ says she loves her and wouldn't change anything.

After going to see the latest abduction site, I feel slightly nauseous. Aaron notices and asks me if I'm alright.

"Sure, I just need to go to the bathroom. Won't be a moment." I add as I hurry off to the bathroom.

I'm nervous. I don't know how to tell him. I missed my period a week ago, so I bought three tests. The shop assisstant wished me good luck. Three positive tests. I'm pregnant. With Aaron's baby.

** Hotch's POV **

Emily's nervous as we sit at the table, studying the notes we have.

"Aaron, there's something I need to tell you. It's quite important..." She begins. She gets interrupted by a message from Morgan.

We've found the unsub, he's holding three girls hostage. 

He sends the coordinates, and we hurry off to the SUVs. 

"After the case is closed, we'll talk." I reassure her and place my right hand on her arm as I drive.

The unsub is Nicolaus Lenkov. Russian immigrant. Emily tightened her grip on her gun as we approach the warehouse where Morgan, Dave and Reid are waiting. We can't start shooting if he has girls in there.

"Mr Lenkov?" Emily calls out. I want to stop her, to keep her close to me as she walks towards the door. "My name's Emily." She says in Russian. "I want to help you."

"What do you want?" He calls out in a thick Russian accent.

"I want to help you, and the girls. I know why you're doing this. Your ex-wife took your two girls from you after the divorce. But this isn't going to make the pain go away. You need help. I want to give you that help. Can I come in?" She asks.

The door opens, and she gives us a nod as she walks inside. My heart is pounding hard inside my chest.

"We need to get inside." I say urgently.

And then I hear the shot. And the screams.

"EMILY!" I yell and we run inside the warehouse.

** JJ's POV **

"Penelope, I wonder what I'm going to do when Aria gets older. I need to put her first as a single parent."

"Jaydge, you'll do amazing. You're a natural."

"But I can't look after her if I go on cases. I was thinking about altering my job. You know, if I stayed at Quantico instead of flying with the team. Then I'd go home every night and Aria won't grow up on her own."

"You've got a point, JJ. That would be better for Aria. Is that what you want?"

"I want Aria to grow up safely and happily, without having to worry."

My train of thought is interrupted by a phone call.

"This is Agent Jareau."

"Jennifer Jareau? I'm Dr Reinheart, I've got some news on an Emily Prentiss?"

"Oh, is she alright? Where is she?"

"I'm afraid Ms Prentiss is at hospital. She received two gunshots two the lower abdomen."

"Oh my goodness, is she going to make it?"

"I'm sorry, I can't answer that. She's in critical condition in surgery. I don't know."

"I'm on my way." I say, quickly ending the call and picking up my car keys.

"It's Emily. She's been shot bad. I need to go to hospital, can you follow me and bring Aria?"

"Sure." She says, although her voice is shaking. "Will she...?"

"I don't know, Pen, I honestly don't know." I answer her truthfully, although fearing the worst as I leave the BAU and climb into my car.