This isn't what I want

chapter 34

** The next day, JJ's POV **

Aria slept through the night, and I'm still exhausted. I took her home yesterday, and settled her into her room. I haven't had time to decorate, but I'm having Emily and Hotch round later today. I'm so happy for them. I know Emily's wanted to express her feelings for years, and they make a beautiful couple. I can't stay in bed forever, so I get dressed in a simple shirt and black pants. It feels weird not having the bump any more.

Aria wakes up hungry, so I pick her up and rest her head in the crook of my arm. I want to be gentle, so she's comfortable, and unbutton my blouse. 

"Sweetie, you're going to be happy here. You're going to grow up in a peaceful environment, with your auntie Emily, auntie Penelope, uncle Spence, uncle Derek, uncle Dave and uncle Aaron. I promise you I'll never leave you."

** Emily's POV **

I roll over and see Aaron still asleep next to me. It was my first night in his house, and we spent the night discussing the future. Talking about relationships, and families. We both want kids, but not yet. It isn't fair to bring up a child in this world whilst we still work. 

9:30 AM, the clock says. Right on cue, Aaron yawns and stretches.

"Morning, Emily."

"Morning, handsome. What do you want to do today?"

"Well, no cases, so why don't we have breakfast? Blueberry pancakes and syrup?"

"Sounds perfect." I say with a smile, and watch him get out of bed.

His body is so perfect; I watch him get dressed and go downstairs. Sighing, I drag myself out of bed, and reach for my clothes. I still haven't moved all of my things in to his house, but later today, we're going over to JJ's house to help decorate the nursery.

The smell of pancakes wafts up the stairs as I put on a shirt and jeans.

"Breakfast is served!" Aaron calls up the stairs, and I rush down to the kitchen, my mouth watering.

"Mmm, you're a good cook." I say in satisfaction as we eat the pancakes.

"I have my uses." He teases, and pops a blueberry in his mouth.

"Oh really? Why don't you show me?" I flirt with him.

It feels nice to just relax, without worrying about cases and work. I sometimes wonder what my life would be like without the BAU.

Aaron leans in to kiss me, and I wrap my arms around him.

"Shall we take this upstairs?" I ask him.

He lifts me up, making me giggle like a school girl, and carries me upstairs. We go to the bedroom, and he unbuttons his shirt. I lie on the bed, and let him slip off my jeans. He kisses me passionately, and I love the touch of his soft skin against mine.

"Aaron, I love you." I whisper in his ear as he kisses me.

"I love you too."

** 5 hours later, Hotch's POV **

I knock on JJ's door, holding Emily's hand. After our beautiful morning, she couldn't stop smiling. I've never seen her look so happy. The door opens, and JJ appears, carrying Aria in her arms.

"Hi guys, thanks for coming. I need help with her nursery, I haven't had the time to fix up her room yet."

"That's alright. It gives us a chance to see her again. She looks just like you." Emily says.

"I'm thankful. I don't think I could take it if she looked anything like her father." JJ says with a small smile.

"So, what needs doing?" I prompt as we are led inside.

We spend a good two hours in her nursery, setting up a cot and painting the walls bright yellow. By the time it's finished, we are all exhausted. JJ's asleep with Aria in her lap. They look so peaceful as they sleep, so Emily and I decide to leave her to it. 

As we creep outside and shut her door, Emily turns to me.

"Aaron, let's do it. Let's try for a child."