This isn't what I want

chapter 56

** Reid's POV **

"No! SPENCER!" I hear as I'm abruptly woken.

JJ's crying as she sleeps, and I gently nudge her awake. She sits upright, her eyes wide open and alert. Something's happened. I think she had a nightmare.

"JJ? Talk to me." I say, but she doesn't hear me.

"JENNIFER!" I yell in an attempt to get her to listen.

She blinks, looks around, and then stares rather blankly at me before rubbing her eyes. I don't think she notices her eyes are wet from her tears.

"Spence? You're alright. I had a dream. It was our wedding. And someone was there. Someone was at the back. He, he had a gun, I think, and then they were screaming. Screaming your name. And it all went black." She says hurriedly. Her breathing is rapid.

"Jen? Jaydge? It's alright, I'm here." I comfort her.

I try to pull her closer to me, but she resists and stands up instead. She's still crying. She rubs her belly, and rushes to the kitchen sink. I hear her throw up, and then the sound of the tap running. I go to check on her, and she's just staring into the water.

"Honey, what is it?"

"What if it's him? What if he's coming back?" She whispers, terrified.

"Will's in prison. He can't hurt you. And you know Peter's dead."

"I'm scared." She turns to face me and I can see in her eyes she's deeply afraid.

I wrap my arms around her waist and wipe tears from her cheeks. She's so beautiful but she's hurting too. I want to comfort her and tell her it's alright but she's smart enough to know that nothing in this world is guaranteed.

"I'm here for you. I always will be. You're going to be my wife. I'm going to protect you." I say as I lead her upstairs and into our bedroom.

I make sure she lies down and then climb in next to her and stroke her hair and until she closes her eyes.

"I'm here." I whisper until I fall asleep.

** Emily's POV **

It's 3:54 am and my phone is vibrating. I'm such a light sleeper than even a small draft could be enough to wake me. Aaron sleeps through almost anything except his alarm or the smell of bacon and eggs. I reach out and pick up my phone to check caller ID.

JJ

"Hey, JJ, what is it?"

"I need you right now. Please, can you meet me outside my house?"

"Sure what's up?"

"See you."

She hangs up and the line goes dead. Confused, I get out of bed, and slip next door to scribble a note to Aaron and put some clothes on. As it's winter I pull on a sweater and a scarf and I slip out the back door.

The journey only takes a few minutes in the car as JJ lives only a few blocks over. She's sitting on her front steps, a bag by her side, with a flask in her hands. She looks freezing.

"JJ, what's wrong?" I ask immediately as I climb out of the car.

She doesn't answer me. She just climbs into the passenger seat. I get back in the car, lock the doors, and turn to her.

"We're not going anywhere until you tell me what's going on."

"Emily, I dreamt about him again."

"Who?"

"Will. I've been fine for months, and now he's back in my head. It was our wedding. Me and Reid, and he had a gun. I don't know if I can do this." She looks so scared.

"Do what?"

"Keep protecting everyone. I'm scared about my two babies. I'm scared about Reid. I'm scared about myself. Look, can we just drive somewhere. I need somewhere that Will won't find."

She looks so serious that I obediently turn on the ignition and slowly begin to drive. She keeps biting her nails and looking around out the window.

"JJ, relax. He's not going to come after you. Not while he's in prison."

The news button starts glowing red so I turn on the radio.

"Breaking news. Ten convicts have recently broken out of Virginia State Prison in a mass breakout starting in Zone F. Among those escaped are Jeremy Camden, Charles Franklin, William LaMontagne Jr, Anthony Green and Christopher Whitfield. Identities of the other escaped criminals are being confirmed. They are all a part of the sex offenders section. Please be on lookout."

I look over at JJ. She's frozen in fear.