I could not believe it! I am feeling so stressed and confused and dizzy. Mom was downstairs with Aunt Helena. Riley and Tim were with grandma. While I am here, stuck in Riley's bed, having dark thoughts.
"Why is this happening, Lord? Please answer me. I know you know." I thought while looking far into the window expecting an answer in my hopeless, empty spirit.
Me: All I thought Mr. Kelly was a good man. I know he is. But what he did to dad is completely unacceptable. Lord, he sent him to jail! He sent him to jail!
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Me: Why are you quiet?
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Me: Show your miracles! Show yourself!
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Me: Why didn't you tell me that this will happen? You knew everything right?
God is not answering so I looked for Bible verses that may answer my question. I keep on turning the pages but I just left it on my bed. I feel that I may rip the pages off because of my anger in the situation. I cried in my room wishing that this all shouldn't have happened.
Diary, mom said that he was the one who sent him to jail. Mr. Kelly of all the people I have known would help bring me closer to God would make this.
Mom got rid off him and told the police but Mr. Kelly was a strong competitor, he was a doctor. A known doctor. But he had no riches. And that is what he claims. He claims that my dad stole his wealth. In which I think is not fair because I have known dad since I was a little kid.
What is happening to me?
I looked at myself in the mirror. "Am I Janice anymore?" I thought.
I am losing my mind!
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I am losing my faith!
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I am losing myself!
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I am losing God!
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Conversations with God (Book 1 of With God Trilogy)
EspiritualJanice, a girl from California began writing everyday about her life. She loved how God speaks to her and God's presence around her. Until she finds herself in a state where God brings her out of the perfect world she grew up in to the world of real...
