Conversations with God (Book 1 of With God Trilogy)

April 15, 2018

Today, I have only myself and God. I wanted to talk to Him. I wanted to spend my early hours of the morning with Him. The pages in the Bible lead me to the story of Job. Particularly when everything was taken from him.

"In the course of one day, Job receives four messages, each bearing separate news that his livestock, servants, and ten children have all died due to marauding invaders or natural catastrophes. Job tears his clothes and shaves his head in mourning, but he still blesses God in his prayers. Satan appears in heaven again, and God grants him another chance to test Job. This time, Job is afflicted with horrible skin sores. His wife encourages him to curse God and to give up and die, but Job refuses, struggling to accept his circumstances." -Job 1:19-22

It is as if God was telling me the story of a man who had everything taken from him but still blesses the name of the Lord. I always loved this story. I feel like Job is so much relatable to us since we are experiencing challenges in life. But I am afraid that Job experienced the worst-case scenario. I had a feeling that God is telling me something.

God: I hope my children will be like Job.

Me: You, Lord have been so good through trials.

God: I am.

Me: I also hope I can be like Job. Teach me. Help me.

God: It takes willingness.

Me: I am willing.

God: Are you sure?

I had that one on second thought. I paused and thought about what could come. I became worried.

The sun comes up signaling a new day. Having that question in mind, am I sure? I'm still not.

It was another good day worshipping and praising God in church. It's a good message from our pastors that we, as Christians should face these trials with joy. It is kind of confusing because when I personally face trials, I can be patient but sometimes I cannot be joyful. It is like the opposite sides happening at the same time.

After this day ends, I wanted to ask God to help me understand today's message. As I was opening my Bible, my phone rang suddenly. Surprisingly, it was Mrs. Kelly! I swiped right right away to answer.

"Hello? Janice?"

"Hello, Mrs. Kelly?"

"Janice, how are you?"

"I'm good, miss. I am in a good school but to be honest, I miss it there?"

"Me too. I miss having a light and jolly student here."

I just smiled and she heard my breath.

"I have called because I want to make sure you are okay."

"Why, miss?"

"I had a dream about you. You are in a hospital."

"Really? What am I doing?"

"I- I just saw you. But anyway, thanks for answering."

"Thank you too, miss."

"Just make sure to go to the doctor when you feel sick. Take care always."

"You too, Mrs. Kelly. Thanks for checking me out. Bye!"

I hanged up the phone with a puzzled face.

It's weird. Why would she call me for that? Gosh! Maybe I'm sick or whatever. No worries, Janice.

"Mrs. Kelly might have missed me, Lord." I thought.