It hurt. It hurt so bad to leave her like I did. She didn't deserve what I did.
But I was driven over the edge. When Hunter showed me that picture, I was sent into a fit of anger. At myself, at Hunter, at Audrey.
When I left her house, I was numb. I couldn't talk, I couldn't do anything. Barry and Iris tried to figure out what was wrong with me. Eventually, they gave up trying. No amount of bargaining could get me to let it go. Nothing.
I was staring at my ceiling when my phone went off for the first time. I slowly crept over to check it, moving at the pace of a sloth.
The picture that I was faced with tore what remained of my heart apart. Hunter had lied to me. He'd blackmailed me into breaking up with the one girl that I loved more than anything.
I couldn't type a reply fast enough.
Sebastian
I'm coming over. I'm so sorry.I threw my phone down on my bed and took off down the stairs. I didn't even bother to put on shoes.
I drove as fast as I could to her house. Running through my head was all the possibilities. She could slam the door in my face, as she probably should have. She could slap me again, which really fucking hurt. Or, she could forgive me for falling into Hunter's trap, which I thought was unlikely.
When I knocked on the door, there was no answer for a few minutes. As the door opened, I opened my mouth to start to apologize and beg for my girlfriend back. But, I was faced with a long haired Latino that looked like he wanted to kill me.
"She's asleep, go away," he growled, grimacing at me.
I sighed, fighting the wave of tears that was threatening to spill. "Please," I croaked, my voice completely wracked with sorrow and pain. "Please, Cisco."
"Cisco, go away," a soft, almost angelic voice said, making Cisco turn around. Hesitantly, the boy turned around and let Audrey to the door.
Upon seeing her, I burst into tears. "God, I'm such an idiot," I started, running a shaky hand through my hair. "I lost you for a fucking dumb thought that Hunter put in my head."
"Seb-" Audrey began, but I cut her off.
"No. Just listen to me, okay?" She nodded at my words, taking a deep breath. "Audreyanna Alexis Hummel, I love you more than anything in this world. And I...I don't deserve you. I don't deserve your sweet smile, or your perfect face, or your...your voice that makes even an angel jealous, I swear. And I cant believe that I was so stupid as to lose you like that."
"Audrey, I can't lose you. I can't lose another person that I love in my life. Hunter found out about us and...he kept saying things that I just couldn't handle. I just snapped when he showed me that stupid picture. It was just him with a girl with your hair and it drove me over the edge. Jesus, I shouldn't have even believed it. I'm so, so sorry. I know that I don't deserve to be forgiven, but I can't deal without you."
Audrey was silent, small tears rolling down her cheeks. I was sobbing, unable to speak anymore.
"I forgive you," she whispered, wiping her eyes with her sleeves. "Hunter's a manipulative bitch, I know. I know that you wouldn't just do that without him pushing you over the edge. I forgive you. But-" she paused, coming closer to me.
"But what?" I asked, sniffling.
A small smile made it's way to her lips. "You can't ever break up with me again over something Hunter said. I love you, and only you, Seb. You can count on that."
I couldn't control myself any longer. I took her small, tan face in my hands and kissed her like there was no tomorrow. It was full of passion, lust, determination, and most of all, love. It showed everything that we couldn't say.
When we pulled away, I rested my forehead on hers. "I'm never breaking up with you."
She grinned, moving her face into the crook of my neck. Her hot breath tickled when she said, "I love you too much, you know that?"
"Believe me, I know."
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I spent the night with Audrey after I apologized. She explained everything to Kurt and Cisco, who reluctantly began to understand. Still, I was faced with narrowed eyes and grimaces when they left.
We were laying on the couch in each other's arms late that night. I kept apologizing, even though she insisted it was alright.
"Hey," she got my attention, "can I ask you something?"
I nodded, feeling her lean into my body more.
"Are you...scared? I mean, scared of losing me, I know, but what else?" Audrey asked. I looked into those doe-like, chestnut eyes that I loved looking into.
I gulped, biting my lip. "I'm terrified," I admitted, shaking my head. "Everyone that I've ever loved has either died, gone to prison, or been separated from me. And I'm so scared of you leaving me...because I'm not good enough for you. You deserve so much more than an orphaned kid who's dad got accused of murder."
She was silent for a moment, before making me look her in the eyes. "Sebastian Grey. I could never leave you. I wouldn't care if you were the most wanted criminal in America. I would still love you to pieces. You need me just as much as I need you. We keep each other grounded. And I wouldn't have it any other way, my darling."
I stared in awe at my girlfriend. My wonderful, amazing girlfriend. I hugged her tightly, feeling her smile in my shoulder.
"I don't deserve you," I mumbled, grinning like an idiot.
She shook her head, just enough for me to feel it. "I don't deserve you, Bas."
God, I love her so much.
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A/N:
Y'all didn't really think I'd keep them apart for long, did ya? They're backkk!
Soon, the really juicy stuff is gonna start. Any suggestions for the story? Comment it!Much love, Chloe.

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