Chosen One (TaeNie, NamJen, YoonNie)

15

- Taehyung

I had everything in my brain..
The possibility that Bangtan might break down.
The image of someone crying, the pictures that someone is dying because of this painful love we are all getting in.

I am still in the bus...
And it hasn't been ten minutes, I rushed to the driver and requested it to stop the bus...

Despite of it being illegal to stop here, I still forced them...

And as I hopped out...
I ran, I ran and ran...

"I love Jennie...
I love my hyungs.
I love BTS."

I ran and just continued even I am out of breathe...

Until I reached back to their dorm.

Without knocking, ringing the doorbell or so whatever, I entered...

And as I came in...
My eyes immediately recognized two people situated in the veranda.

I can't hear anything...
I can't see them clearly, yet...

"Will you pull back and stop him? Or...
Are the two of you..."

I froze at my position...
Not even the wind bothered me.

"One...two...three...four..."

I counted...
Until Namjoon hyung pulled himself...
And Jennie didn't do anything, she did nothing.

"Have you chosen this early already?"

I saw how Namjoon hyung smiled, it was a little blurry as they are far away from my sight, but the way he holds Jennie's hands, and the fact that she isn't doing anything...

Made me bow my head, and my feet moved away.

Few steps backwards...
One last glance before leaving...

And she is still not doing anything.

Then, I turned my back...
And walked out of the gate once again.

I put my hands inside my pocket, began to walk in a normal speed.

Some people might see me as someone who took the exit from Blackpink's dorm, or if luck is tough, some people will recognize as Kim Taehyung, but I disregarded these things...

I just kept on walking...

I can hear whisperes, probably because my eyes are now visibly red, tears began to pour down and only the mask and hood hide my face.

I walk...
Just walk, walk...

"Namjoon hyung...
He is a smart guy.
A very able guy, he can do many things...
He is able to do those things he like...
He is so talented, intelligent...
Who wouldn't like him?"

A weird laugh escaped through my lips at the thought...

"He is chivalrous...
Very gentle and caring.
A very typical man a woman wold love to have."

Tears are fast on dripping out of my eyes...
I can't even wipe them as I know, it will just continue flowing.

"Who wouldn't choose him over me? Especially, Jennie Kim?"

I asked myself...
And I stopped my tracks as I reached a park where no one is here.

I looked up at the sky...
Clouds are covering the sun...
Pretty dark clouds.

"Who wouldn't choose him than choosing me? Especially her, Jennie Kim...

A woman who has standards for everything.
A woman who tends to do everything perfect and fine.
A woman who would consider herself and respect herself as she knows what she should have, whay she deserves."

She deserves someone better...
Of course, she needs a guy that wouldn't do those things I did.

"Namjoon hyung, in terms of these kind of things...
Is better than me, he has almost everything a woman would ask."

My head bowed down once again...
And I found a bench just near me, I sat there alone and contemplated...

Everything I did the past few days flashed before me...
And I felt really guilty, like I wanted to swallow my tongue and just die here due to severe bleeding.

"Jennie..."
Unknowingly, my lips mumbled.

"Do you love him?"
I asked...

My eyes landed on my hands...
Gripping on each other.

"Why does it hurts so much?"

I had never fell inlove deeply.
I had once, but I am aware that it was just a one sided love, and I didn't get to confess so it doesn't hurt me so much.

But today...
At this rate of moment...
It hurts like my heart is being torn, being burnt.

"I won't be able to get the person I need again, will I?"
I asked, whispering to myself.

A weird smile formed on my lips...

My phone vibrated from my pocket...
Out of nothing, I took it out and looked who's calling...

I haven't gotten to notice but I have been out for almost an hour already. Walking far away took my time too much.

"Jendeukie"

The name is hers...

"Why?"

I want to know why she is calling...
I wonder, why...

But I shrug it off and didn't answer, i just stared at my phone until it stopped vibrating.

Then, few messages and missed calls displayed on my lockscreen.

I unlocked my passcode and see the messages...

From: Namjoon hyung
Where are you? We need some talk.

From: Yoongi hyung
V, we need you here.

From: Jendeukie
I need to talk to you and so as Yoongi and Namjoon. Where are you? Come back early. Be safe.

I am a little surprised with the 'be safe' for no reason.

But I feel like she is just being considerate because I was the first one to court her...

Maybe they are going to talk to me because...

"I lose already."