Chosen One (TaeNie, NamJen, YoonNie)

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A:   That was for a little time...

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- Jennie

Another performance has ended...
The end stage for Ddu Du Ddu Du, kind of sad but happy as today is our eleventh win for the song.

Now...
We're taking rests.
Tiredness had linger within us for the several days.

And here I am...
Tired from performance and tired from the scenarios on my life.

I can hear giggling couples from the other room.
I can hear some kind of weird whimpers and moans which I should get used to it yet...

It still feels awkward to hear them doing things.

There's one pair having the same argument they have ever since before.

This is the daily cycle of our lives...
This is the daily scenarios I am facing and experiencing.
These scenes that sometimes...

I don't want to see...
I don't want to hear...
I don't want to encounter...
Even just for a day...

"I want to take a rest...
I am tired."

I closed my eyes...
I bent my knees and lied sideways here on my bed.

But immediately, my eyes opened as I heard a knock from my door.

Which of the three?

"Taehyung? No, he haven't talked to me yet...
Not even a message since the night...

Should I call it a mistake?"

"Namjoon."
       My lips called his name as I opened the door, revealing him.

"Hi."
        As usual...

The same greeting.

"Hey."
      What should I do? Greet him back, of course.

"I bought this just in case you're hungry."
        And also, there's the part that he will hand me a bag of goods, or a box of chocolates, or anything.

I took it...
Bowed my head a little...
Mustered a smile...

"Are you fine?"
       But the next thing that came out of his mouth surprise me a bit.

He haven't asked me that, not even once before.

So, my eyes scanned his expression...
His eyes reeling me that he is concern and sincerely worried.

"I have done something unfair...
And now...where is the man I favored too much with?
Where is he? Is he with another woman?"

My eyes shut close at the thoughts coming in...
But when I smelled Namjoon's scent, I came back and looked at him.

"Honestly...I'm a little tired."
        I don't know if he will take it literally but I am hoping that he will get what I want to say.

"Ahh, sorry, yeah, you look tired. I'll go now, then. Sleep first, or at least take a serious rest and don't stre..."
        I cut him off there and shook my head.

"Not my body, Namjoon."
        I stated.

Confusion laced on his aura.

"Come in, I'll tell you something."
        And because I can't hold it anymore...

I invited him in...
In my room.

"But would that be fine? Me...going inside your room? Just the two of us?"
       His words and the way he deliver it is very respectful, and that made me chuckle.

"I invited you on my own will."
         I answered and he smiled.

"Okay, umm, let's just keep the door ajar so you won't feel unsafe with me."
        He entered and kept the door ajar.

I placed down the bag of snack on my desk.
I motioned him to sit on my bed or on the single person couch which he took.

I sat on my bed...
I crossed my legs and looked at him.

His eyes exploring my room...
Joy is visible on his expression.

"Your room is really comfortable."
        He commented and glanced at me.

"Thank you, I'll take as a compliment. I always clean my room, and only light and dark colors are painted, I don't want it to look messy."
        I answered and he smiled at me genuinely, finding my words right.

"Ahm, what are you going to tell me, anyway?"
         Directing it there, he asked.

"I'm sorry."
         Was the thing that came out from my lips.

My eyes avoided his gaze...
But I can feel how confuse he is.

"I'm sorry for this."
       I glanced at him and a weird chuckle escaped my lips.

"For what? You did nothing."
        With sure tone of voice and comforting presence, he asked and stated.

"Things are being unfair."
        My voice cracked a little...

The guilt from what I did starting hitting my nerves.

"Unfair?"
        He got confused.

"You...it's..."
         I let out a gasp and bit my lower lip, couldn't contain the too much pressure being pushed on me everyday.

"Taehyung and you, both of you really need to lend out times for each other and to sacrifice a relationship between you and him, the friendship just because you said you like me."
         I explained and an understanding smile formed on his lips...

"That would be fine. We know you will choose fair enough and you will be considerate to me and him, even if it includes Yoongi."

That's it...
The end of me.

"Be considerate to you and him...
Even if it includes Yoongi...

But I had favored one already...
And I guess, that was a huge...really huge mistake."

"I lost it...
I lost myself."

"Jennie Kim...
I had called you many times on that time...
But you didn't listen."

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A:     Remember...

Regret always takes place after a failure.