Chosen One (TaeNie, NamJen, YoonNie)

26

- Jennie

"Chaeyoung, baby?"
One man opened the door and entered being followed by many more man.

My eyes didn't bother looking at them...
My body is glued on the couch here in the living room.
It is early evening...

And now, I let Lisa and Chaeyoung cook while Jisoo eonnie is watching them.

My mind is too occupied to do some things.

"Living dooooooll is cooking. Can I have some?"
I heard Jungkook reaching the kitchen while sweetly talking to Lisa.

And my eyes caught the person who sat across me on the other couch, Jin.

It hasn't been days and I am sure he and Jisoo eonnie is not yet fine, yet he is here...

"I wonder where he can get that guts he has...
I need some."

Then my eyes moved a little, just to see the same person I am talking with yesterday, Yoongi.

"If you can't guess and just to be sure, he went to Nayeon, she hugged him and they went on the cafè. And if you're still not sure, I went there and gave his phone and left but my eyes caught that their fingers are...

interlocked."

"Is it true?"

I found myself earlier at dawn, around two in the morning that I haven't been sleeping since he stated those informations.

I don't know if I should believe him or not...
I don't want to believe him for the tendency that he is just destroying Taehyung's image...

But come to think of it...

"He even went here with Nayeon when he thought I chose Namjoon...it wasn't been days but he got Nayeon already, is that how she is easy? Or maybe because they are already on that's why it is that easy?"

But still...

"I don't want to believe until my eyes get to witness it on my own."

But the words Yoongi left...

"I'll repeat, Jennie Kim. Pick up your pride, don't fall for now, things will be harder if you do. And don't do a mistake, don't. Refuse, now that it is still bearable and...

not complicated yet."

It feels like he really meant it.
And the way he is staring at me while I am gazing to his eyes...

I haven't realized for how long...
But I am literally gazing to his eyes, really intense.

"Everything went to be very complicated since that day when Chaeyoung thought Jimin is cheating on her for Seulgi...Bangtan and Blackpink had that dissonance, ravage, things that don't compliment..."

The next people who got conflict...

"Was the maknae line. Jungkook and Lisa...still including Chaeyoung just after their betrayal thing."

Now...
My case is not a total different.

I have three of them courting me...
For some people's perspective, it is flattering...
But for me...

"It feels hella awful."

I am still afraid that someone will get hurt if I chose...
I am still afraid that the things before will happen again...

But what I am afraid of the most...

"Is to lose myself..."

I realized this while lying on my bed earlier.

I don't want to lose myself in the term that I will choose one yet I will realize I actually love the other one or two too...

This is a very hazardous situation...

"And I don't want a hazard to turn into a disaster."

The three men are all looking at me...
And as I felt it and saw their eyes on me, without emotions, I stood up and went to the kitchen.

There's Jungkook and Jimin, sitting on the dinning area while watching their women to cook.

And there's Jisoo eonnie having a cringed face, disdainfully glancing at Jungkook and Jimin who used to just stick their eyes to their woman.

I took a seat...
I took the seat infront of Jungkook and Jimin and I looked at them.

They both looked at me with a little surprise visible on their eyes.

"May I ask something?"
       Without any introductions, I asked directly and they just nodded.

"Remember I sent you out yesterday? When Jisoo eonnie pushed Jin away?"
        I asked and they nodded again.

"Did..."
       I got a little hesitant yo ask...

Lisa, Chaeyoung and Jisoo eonnie turned their attentions towards me whole these two men is waiting for the next words that will come our of my mouth.

"Did Taehyung went outside when you had reached your dorm?"
         My senses caught their confuse expressions...

And even though I feel so stupid for asking this...

"I still did."

"Yeah? Why are you asking? Didn't he went here?"
           And there, Jimin asked...

And that question is enough...
Enough for me to conclude something.

"Umm...no one went here after you guys left."
        Chaeyounhlg answered.

Jimin glanced at Jungkook yet both of them don't know what's going on...

Even me...
I don't know what's going on with our lives.

"He went out and came back for like two hours. We  thought he came here."
       Jungkook informed.

"If you are out...
And no one knows where you really are...
Doesn't that mean...

Yoongi is right?"

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A:  I am very sleepy.