Fangirl's Diary: Secrets & Lies [Completed]

Chapter Twenty Six - Without You

- Jang's POV

(Now Playing: Without You by Charlie Wilson)

🎶 It feels like a lifetime
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me 🎶

"Di ko namalayan na habang tumatagal ay mas lumalalim ang nararamdaman ko."

🎶 If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me 🎶

"The truth is.. I.. I..like you already."

"I'm serious. Dead serious."

I sighed.

Sehun naman eh! Sinabi ko na dibang kung napipilitan ka lang, wag mo nalang sabihin yun pero ginawa mo pa rin.

🎶 Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now
You're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay 🎶

"Why aren't you picking up your phone?! or at least respond to my messages to you? Where have you been by the way? Did you know how worried I am? You're responding to Zoe-ssi's messages but you're ignoring mine."

Palabas lang ba lahat ng yun Sehun? Totoo bang nag-aalala ka talaga sakin nun?

🎶 Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you 🎶

"I'm sorry Jang-ssi if you're in pain right now because of me but... but we're better off this way. So please stop it already. I don't need to explain myself cause just like what you have said, there's nothing going on between us. And I don't want to hear what you're going to say anymore. So can you please stop this foolishness of yours already? Just forget everything that happened between us. Just..forget about me."

Kaya ba iniwasan mo ko dati?

Napatawa nalang ako ng mapait.

Kasalanan ko din naman pala. Kasi ako din pala mismo ang nagtulak sayong gawin 'to. Kung sana hindi nalang kita kinausap nun edi sana hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito ngayon.

Pero Sehun! Gusto ko lang naman marinig ang dahilan mo kung bakit mo 'ko iniwasan nun eh! Kung sana sinabi mo na sakin ang totoo nung mga panahong yun,hindi na sana ganito kasakit ang mararamdaman ko ngayon. Pinaniwala mo akong mahal mo ako eh. Sobrang sakit Sehun!

🎶 Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine
Sun doesn't shine without you 🎶

Kaya pala gulat na gulat ka nung nabanggit ko si Irene sa Amusement Park. Nung panahong tinanong ko din kung anong magiging plano mo pagkatapos ng lahat sa Italy, iniwasan mo ang tanong ko.

Kaya din pala nung natanong ko kung si Irene ng Red Velvet ba yung babaeng nanakit sayo ay umarte kang masakit ang dibdib mo. Gusto mong malipat ang atensyon ko para hindi mo masagot ang tanong na yun. Ang tanga ko. Ang tanga-tanga ko para hindi mapansin lahat ng yun.

Tumingala ako sa langit at nakita ko yung star na kapareho ng tinuro ni Sehun dati sa Italy.

🎶 This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you 🎶