2Moons - Dark Moons

CH 4 - Haze

Phana POV

As far as I can remember, I always felt alone and empty, everything was still and I was waiting. As though someone was missing in my life. I had my brothers, and when I was with them I was okay, but the lingering feeling never left.

I told Beam and kit when we were kids, they asked me a thousand questions to try and figure out who I could be looking for, but it never worked. Time passed and these things became childhood stories.

Then something new happened, I told my brothers but Beam laughed about it. I realised it wasn't normal and I didn't want people to make fun of me, so I stopped telling anyone. The feeling, that someone should be with me never went away.

The faceless people in the night made it worse, deeper and darker and emptier. Until everything became fake, my interest, my smiles and the laughter with others. Only my family and a few close friends knew the real me, that was enough.

I walked down the stairs speaking with a colleague, planning ways to punish my father for making me come to this damn thing. I only half listened to him tell me about his daughter, my smile fake when I felt it. I stopped and looked around and there he was.

He looked at me with such hope, his eyes shimmering with unshed tears, I couldn't help but go to him. I wanted, no needed to make sure he was okay. His smile was sad as I introduced myself and asked if he was alright. He nodded as he looked up at me, "I'm fine, now you're here."

Suddenly, it wasn't empty any more, the world had noise and it was moving.

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I wanted to see him, I couldn't get his face out of my mind. I smiled speaking to people and getting signed in but I kept watching the room for a glimpse of him. I wanted to go look for him, but I didn't ask his name. I introduced myself but he never told me his. I didn't know what to do, people always came looking for me I never had to look for someone.

He didn't leave my mind all day, I tried to listen to the speeches, advances in techniques, theories by re-nouned doctors but my mind kept drifting back to him. I joined a small party that left the hotel to wander the small town nearby. I tried to refuse wanting to go look for him but they didn't give me a chance, and one was a friend of my fathers, it would have been rude. My interest was fake and when one of the female doctors wouldn't leave me alone I made excuses and left.

Normally I didn't care but tonight I didn't want to do the fake smiles, I couldn't get his face out of my mind. I had been here before, so I took the side route back to the hotel to avoid people. He was sitting at a small café, reading something on his iPad, he looked up and smiled seeing me. Strangely, I thought he was waiting for me and I couldn't help but really smile back.

We sat and talked. He laughed often, I saw the small glances when he thought I didn't know, he sounded much older than me even though he looked so young. When I called him P'Yo, he blushed. I don't know how long we both stayed there, only leaving when they closed.

I never got along with strangers or talked about so much with someone apart from Beam and Kit. But it was so easy to talk to him, like we had done this a thousand times before. Infatuation? Love at first sight? I don't know what it was but it felt...good. We walked back together, I let my hand brush his, happy at the contact and he never moved his away.

He looked up at me adorably as I stood in front of his door and I couldn't move, I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay with him more, I wanted to talk to him more, I wanted to touch him...I quickly put my hands in my pockets before I grabbed him. Wasn't he going to invite me in? They always invited me.