The lost son ~John Frusciante and Josh Klinghoffer

27. Girl you know how to bring the pain

Months passed by and I had been watching Emily's bump growing bigger and bigger. Dad was so happy. I felt a little bit jealous, even though my sister hasn't been born yet.

Lilly had constantly been begging me to have one more baby. I wasn't keen on this idea. Even though I loved her, Johnny was still small and needed a lot of attention. She made me stop using condoms which had been driving me crazy, I had to be very careful.

I had been touring with the Peppers for a few weeks. The tours was going to last just one more week. John had been really nervous. He wanted to be next to Emily. I missed my child too. Lilly called me everyday and every time I heard Johnny giggling when he heard my voice. He learned to crawl and now he was all around the place. He was the most important person to me. I just wanted him to be happy.

Yesterday was my birthday party and I was really hungover. I had just turned 23. That's crazy.

Me and dad were sharing a bed in this expensive hotel. Our legs were tangled and I had hard time getting up.

- Fuck, why did I drink so much...

I mumbled.

- Shut up, I'm still sleeping!

John shouted at me. He was still drunk.

I had a quick shower and went back to bed. I was already falling asleep when my phone rang. It was Lilly.

"Hey, my birthday boy, how's your head today?"

"Aching. I'm sorry, I had too much whiskey."

"That's fine, it was your birthday."

"You're so understanding, that's unbelievable."

"Yeah, but Emily isn't. She's been trying to call John for a few hours now."

"I can hear his phone vibrating. Tell her he's still asleep."

"OK. Josh..."

"Yeah, baby?"

"I wanted to wait until you come back but I can't wait any longer. Emily already knows, so..."

"What is it, Lilly?"

"I'm pregnant. I took a test today."

"What?"

"Are you deaf? You're going to be a father again, Josh."

"I... I... Why did you tell everyone already? Lilly, you know that I..."

"Is that all you want to say?"

"No, I..."

"Save it, Josh."

"No, wait, baby, I'm just shocked, I..."

"Yeah, you didn't want another child. I hoped that you would change your mind but I can see that it's not the case. Fine, go have a drink. I need to go and take care of OUR son alone. What was I thinking..."

"Lilly, really, let me..."

I couldn't finish because she already hung up.

- Fuck!

I cursed and threw my phone across the room. It shattered into pieces.

- What's going on?

Said John, lazily rubbing his eyes.

- You better pick up your fucking phone.

I said angrily.

- Hey, what's the attitude?