The lost son ~John Frusciante and Josh Klinghoffer

39. To readjust you've got to trust

- Hey, Josh, thanks for putting me in here. But you didn't have to look after me the whole night...

Dad said and it woke me up.

- That's not why I'm here. John, I don't think I can look at Lilly now.

- What happened?

- I don't even wanna tell you that, it was so fucked up...

- Josh, you can tell me everything. I will not judge you, no matter what.

He said and embraced me with his shoulder.

- Last night we had a foursome with Tony and Clara. I still see the picture of Lilly being fucked by him in front of my eyes, I don't know what I was thinking. I probably wasn't at all.

- You shouldn't blame her, you took part in it too.

- Yeah, I did. But I did have sex with Clara before so it didn't feel that weird. I still hear her moaning with his dick in her mouth.

- Josh, honestly, that's not fair. She didn't cheat on you. Why do you feel this way now?

- I didn't know it was gonna affect me. She's my wife, only mine! What if she would like to do it all the time now?

- Then why did you agree in first place?

- Fuck, you're not helping me!

I said, getting up. I had a quick shower and went back to this room. John was gone. I peeked into Flea's room but he wasn't there either. He must have already left.

I found dad laying in bed with Emily in the last room.

- Hi Josh!

Em said with a smile.

- Hey.

I answered and sat on the bed.

- Why are you so sad? I thought you had fun last night.

She said, putting her hand on top of mine.

- I can't tell you, Em.

- You need to find Lilly and talk to her.  Go, now.

Dad said, patting my back. I didn't want to face her but I knew that I had to do it.
I went downstairs and there she was, sitting at the table with Clara and Anthony.

- Josh, where have you been all night? I was so scared when I saw that you weren't there.

Lilly said, getting up and hugging me.

- I... I wanted to be alone.

- Why, baby?

She asked like she didn't have a clue.

- Don't act like you don't fucking remember what happened!

I shouted, throwing my glass of water onto the floor. It shattered into pieces.

- Josh, what the hell are you doing?!

She screamed back at me.

- I'm going home.

I said, walking to the front door.

- You're not going anywhere! We're staying there for the next 3 days!

- Yeah, you are. I'm gonna be home. By myself.

I stated, looking for the car keys.

- Anthony, make him stop!