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saw your face, heard your name || chaennie

Chaeyoung is trying to work out whether she's into girls. Meeting Jennie at YG... helps, in a way.

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Chaeyoung has been suspecting she likes girls a bit differently than how she's maybe supposed to for a while now. A good while. A year or two, at least. She clearly remembers always having thought of girls as pretty, and bright, and having loved being around them, but she just assumed that everyone felt that way. Girls are supposed to be supportive and affectionate and maybe a bit inappropriately close, right? There's nothing weird about her acknowledging that her friend's boobs look great in her new bra, or how they all cuddle together for sleepovers.

There really isn't, of course. Girls not into girls the way Chaeyoung is can do both of those and many more things that Chaeyoung does. It has just taken Chaeyoung a while to figure out that her intention and her emotions behind them are a little different to most of her friends'.

Chaeyoung has never minded kissing girls. When they were playing spin-the-bottle, she's never noticed a particular difference between kissing a boy she wasn't really into and kissing a girl she wasn't really into. And why would she, she's told herself. They're both just sets of lips. Sure, the one was a bit stickier than the other, what with the lip gloss that was usually applied quite liberally at parties, but other than that? No remarkable differences, if she was being honest.

Apparently that's not how any of her friends from school feel. Chaeyoung knew that, of course, but she used to assume they were just a bit too prude to confess that they really didn't mind kissing girls that much. That it really felt the same to them as well, but they were giggly and shy and whatever.

Turns out, that's not the case. It's just that Chaeyoung's bi.

She's been toying with the idea for a few weeks and by the time she gets to dance practice, she's unsure if she's just reading too much into her own thoughts. She knows she likes being different, takes pride in the way she dresses unlike anyone else. And this would make her even more different, wouldn't it? So maybe Chaeyoung's really just remarkably chill about her heterosexuality. She's never had an actual thing with a girl before, after all. Not even a genuine crush.

When she first arrived at YG, there was this girl, with a loud laugh, cute gummy smile, and a confident voice. Hair stuffed under a beanie but cascading down her chest in loose waves that frame her perfect face. Chaeyoung catches sight of her from across a group of people, her head thrown back in laughter and just.

Wants to kiss her.

She wants to kiss her so badly in that moment, it's like her entire body starts expanding with the need to move, to grab her face, to press their lips together.

Then someone bumps into her, and she's jostled, and by the time she finds her bearings again, the girl's gone, and Chaeyoung is left shaken in her wake, but also somehow finally feels like something inside herself has settled. Like, "okay, so that's it then". She really is bi. There's no hum-ing or haw-ing about it anymore. Chaeyoung's definitely into girls. It's a relief, actually.

And then everything happens really quickly over the next few days, and she learns the girl's name - Jennie - and she's been put in a group with her and two other wonderful girls, and Chaeyoung doesn't really know what to do with herself or her emotions. She's pretty sure she's somewhere between elated and terrified. They've got 2ne1 to live up to, but she feels buoyed by the excitement of training, by the harsh staff, and thinks that maybe, maybe they can make it.

As soon as she manages to behave like a person, and not a stuttering mess, around Jennie, that is.

Jisoo and Lisa pick up on it fairly quickly, because it's immediately obvious to them that Chaeyoung's bubbly, and open, and a little weird around them, and then shuts down around Jennie like someone's flicked a switch.

"Do you not like Jennie?" Lisa asks once, voice heavy with concern and confusion, because Jennie's a marvellous person, of course.

"Um, no no no, that's not..." is all Chaeyoung has to say, face flaming red, for Lisa's eyes to go wide and her mouth to break into a huge smile.

"Oh my god, you have a crush on her!" she says, far too loudly, considering that one's never truly alone in the dorm, and Chaeyoung shushes her violently.

That's how she comes out the first time. Blushing, and stuttering, but ultimately hugged, and loved, and happy.

She has to tell Jisoo as well then, of course, though Lisa holds her hand and tells her she doesn't have to do anything.

Chaeyoung only realizes what a big mistake it was once she notices that Lisa and Jisoo keep making situations for her and Jennie to be alone together.

It's absolutely marvellous, to bask in Jennie's presence and have all her attention to herself, of course, but it's absolutely harrowing as well. Chaeyoung doesn't know why it happens - she's fine around boys she likes - but she turns into an awkward mess of a human around Jennie. It's probably only a matter of time before Jennie catches on and then, well. That's the question, isn't it? What's going to happen once Jennie figures it out. And what are they going to do afterwards?

And then one day, Jennie kisses her. Which answers that one particular question, at least.

Jisoo and Lisa don't have to try to get them alone together from then on. It's rather the opposite.

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i'm sorry this is so bad

i really rushed this one bc i really feel bad that i neglected this book for my lisoo book that i just finished(you should check that out btw) but i'm going to try to keep doing daily updates on here

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