John's POV
"John nasasaktan ako!"
"John ano ba! Nasasaktan ako!" She said while crying. Binitawan ko siya nang makalabas na kami sa bahay nila vince.
"Nasasaktan na ako." She said while looking at me. Puno ng luha ang kanyang mga mata mabilis na bumabagsak ang mga luha.
"Im sorry. Umuwe kana. Darating na ang taxi." I said to her and turn my back but she held my hand
"No john, nasasaktan na ako sa ginagawa mo. It was too much to bear." She hold my hand so tight.
"Then let go of me, because keeping me will make the pain worst." Tinanggal ko ang kamay niyang mahigpit na nakahawak sakin.
"Are you asking me to let go of you." She asked.
"No, im not asking. If telling you to let go. Ayuko na din naman." Nakatalikod kami sa isat isa pero i feel how hurt she is, but I need to do it dahil hanggat ganto siya mas lalala lang yung sakit. Mas magkakasakitan kami.
"Your telling me to let go of you. John Its not that easy to let go of someone who turns to be your world and your future. Don't tell me to let go of you because telling me to let you go is killing me dahil mahal na mahal kita."
"You know angela, i love the idea that you since we were kids you always take care of me, be there when I need someone to cry, lean on, when i have a problem and you always understand me and that idea make me realize that your my ideal girl that your the girl i must be with. Naisip ko nun ikaw ang para sakin dahil nandyan ka sa tabi ko. When you left me i was so hurt but i try to understand you because you did it to me but when angie came everything change. I realized everything turn to be in the right place."
"Ginagawa mo ito dahil sakanya. Siya ang dahilan diba. Pero kadarating niya lang para mas paburan ang tulad niya. Kadarating niya para mas piliin mo siya over me. And kadarating niya lang para sabihing siya na ang mahal mo." Hearing her cry want me to hug her tight but I resist my mind to do it.
"I realized that im not inlove with you but only with the idea that you being there for me and love me for whatever reason.I was only inlove with the idea but not with you. Angie came and give me the true meaning of love, sakanya ko naramdan ang hindi ko kailan man naramdaman sayo and that then i found out the I was inlove with her that when she left it was painful and scary."
"You know hearing it to you that your not inlove with me breaks my heart into million pieces kasi pinaramdam mo sakin na mahal na mahal mo ako nun tapos ganto ipagpapalit mo ako sa tulad niya! Sa tulad niya walang walang kumpara sakin!" Angela was shouting and me face her.
"John binigay ko sayo ang lahat, iniwan ko ang pangarap ko para sayo kasi yun ang gusto mo ang magkasama tayo, pero ano! Sinasaktan mo ako para sakanya! Sinasaktan mo ako! Sobrang sakit na!" Niyakap ko si Angela.
"Im sorry kung nasasaktan kana, sorry kung sobrang sakit na pero if we continue to be in this relationship mas masasaktan ka kasi you chose to be with me when i chose to be with her. Im sorry because i love so much that in willing to leave everything behind just to be with her that's how i love her. So please let go."
Angela pushed me. "Kung maka hiling ka parang ganun lang kadali yun. Ganun lang kabilis. Oo madaling sabihin pero mahirap gawin. John your asking me to let you go is not that easy, how can I let you go when you are my world and future. Tell me how can I do that when your the one i love and to tell you there's a process in everything and letting you has a difficult process."
"Ganun kabilis mo siyang minahal samantalang ako simula nung bata tayo magkasama tayo. Kung sa idea ka lang nainlove sakin, maybe sa idea din na palaging siya ang kasama mo noong wala ako sa tabi mo." Angela went to me and hugged me.
