Nakatulog ako sa pagod. Pag tingin ko sa gilid ko wala na akong naabutang tao tanging damit ko nalang na nakaayos na nakatupi. Mapait akong ngumiti kasabay ng pagpatak ng luha ko.
Bakit ba umiiyak na naman ako? samantalang ganto naman talaga ang kakalabasan ng ginawa namin. Alam ko naman na wala lang to para sakanya. Alam ko.naman na ganto ang kakahinatnan. Pero bakit ang sakit pa din. Sana hindi nalang ako bumigay. Sana pinigilan ko ang sarili ko, sana pati ang pagtibok ng puso ko para sakanya ay tumigil na din.
Bumangon ako at nagsuot ng damit tapos bumaba. Ikakain ko nalang to. Pagbaba ko ay may nakahandang pagkain na sa lamesa.
"Baby oh, nilutuan tayo ng daddy mo. Matitikman mo na din ang luto niya. Masarap siyang magluto." Sambit ko sa aking sarili para pagaanin ang aking loob.
Umupo ako para sana kumain kaya lang bigla nalang bumukas ang pintuan sa bakuran at bumungad si john na top less and pawisan.
Pinakbet naman oh! Shet! Ang ganda ng view!
"Like what you seeing. You can touch me." Sabi ni john at hinimas ang kanyang abs na pawisan.
Tang na juice ! Rumurupok na namam ako!
Gising angie! Huwag kang papa-akit!
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" Tanong ko. Lumpit naman ito sakin at hinalikan ako sa noo.
"Why? Masama bang nandito ako." Tumawa ito na parang akala niya ay okay kami. Umupo ito sa tabi ko. He act like what between us is okay.
"John, Biro lang ba to para sayo? Kasi ako seryuso sayo. Nawala ako ng ilang linggo kasi nasaktan mo ako ng sobra na hanggang ngayon ay dama ko pa din. Tapos babalik ka dito sakin na parang walang nangyareng masakit. Na parang sayo ay balewala lang. All those days that i was away is the painful days because of what you've done to me. John until now this." Itinuro ko ang puso ko. "This heart is belong to you but this heart also was broken into pieces because of you."
"I gave in when you came here because I love you. But I also think that this is our last so I treasured it. Im done feeding your fantacy. I gave you too much time to sort your feeling but now I think I already know what and who will you chose because in the first place I was just a thing to you. " he was just starinh at me with an eyes full longing. "I love you but we need to stop. I reached my limitation and I don't want to hurt somebody just to be with you when you no longer mine." Tumayo ako at naglakad palabalik sa kwarto ko
"Angie." Tawag ni john nang nasa hagdanan na ako. Kaya lumingon ako.
"Are you tired?" Tanong nito. "If you are please just take a rest as long as you want but please never give up." His eyes look like begging me.
I smile bitterly. "No john,im not tired but I need to stop because I was wounded deeply and if I keep what im doing im gonna die because of the pain so I need to stop, to stop the pain and to make my wound heal."
"If you stop, then its mean your giving up." He went closer to me to me. Tumango ako. John hold my face. "Angie, please don't stop because i already know what im feeling towards you."
I close my eyes and cover my ears because I don't want yo her those words that means nothing to him.
"Angielyn I love you so much. I was inlove with you. So much inlove." His voice is full of sincerity but I refuse to listen.
Umiling-iling ako. "Tama na john! Tama na kasi lalong sumasakit ang puso ko sayo! Tama naman.na yung sakit na binigay mo sakin mula noon. Please stop I don't want to hear those word to you when you don't mean it. Don't say those word to me because you don't want me to let go of you. You know those word are magical and when you say those word to someone means you love her truly not because you just need her."
