Reflection | YOONMIN

Chapter 42

Warning: This chapter contains sensitive content such as eating disorders. This can be triggering for some people so please read with caution. 

As always, this brings up personal problems, I apologize in advance as I don't mean to, but just know that my inbox is always open if you need it. 

Other than that, it's a really cute and and fluffy chapter so enjoy that!

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"An eating disorder? Why didn't you tell me?" Yoongi shouted.

Jimin's vision was blurry from the flow of tears.

"I'm sorry I-"

"You lied to me this whole time!" Yoongi put his hands up to emphasize his point.

"No, I didn't mean to." Jimin begged and walked closer to Yoongi.

"I can't be with someone I can't trust." Jimin tried walk faster, but Yoongi just kept getting farther and farther the faster Jimin was walking even though Yoongi was standing still. It was as if Yoongi's feet were planted to the ground. But he just kept getting farther away from Jimin.

"I won't lie again, I promise!" Jimin yelled with a shaky voice.

"It's too late, Jimin." Yoongi shook his head and reached his arm out. 

The figure of a girl appeared out of nowhere right in front of Jimin's eyes. She was wearing a white flowy dress and had long black hair, but was faceless. She took Yoongi's hand.

"Wait, Yoongi!" Jimin tried to scream but had no voice.

Yoongi and the faceless girl turned away from Jimin and started walking away from him.

Jimin tried to move to run after Yoongi, but it's as if his feet were stuck to the ground. He couldn't scream, it's like his voice box was ripped from his throat. He couldn't move. All he could do was watch Yoongi and the girl walk away from him and disappear into nothing.

Jimin's eyes shot open and he shook his head to help him snap out of the dream that was still playing in his mind.

His heart was pounding and his blanket was nowhere to be seen, probably ended up on the floor in the midst of his dream- nightmare.

He slowly rose to sit up. There were so many thoughts running through his mind. He did the only thing his body was allowing him to do at the moment, cry. The tears just started racing down his face. He felt around the bed for his pink teddy bear and when he finally found it, he hugged it tightly. He put his head down and rested it on the bear, soaking its soft fur with his tears.

At that point he was sobbing and couldn't catch his breath. However, he had to do it quietly so his parents wouldn't wake up. He was falling apart while his parents were sleeping soundly in the next room.

He had a hard time processing what just happened. Yoongi somehow found out about Jimin's eating disorder and left him because he lied about it. It almost wasn't a dream because he is very fearful that things might actually play out like that. But what really haunted him was the faceless girl Yoongi held hands with. Jimin had no idea who it could be. The only logical thing that makes sense is that it was maybe one of Yoongi's ex girlfriends. Maybe the one he talked about. Jimin didn't know, but he couldn't stop shaking.

He stayed sitting up for a few minutes trying to calm his breathing by doing his breathing exercises with his teddy bear still engulfed in his arms.

Eventually his crying did cease to a few sobs here and there and occasional coughing because he cried so much. His head was also pounding and his eyes felt swollen.