Reflection | YOONMIN

Chapter 50

WARNING: This chapter contains sensitive and triggering content such as extreme emotional distress, anxiety, and eating disorders. The sensitive content makes up most of the chapter so if you don't think you'll be able to read it, stop reading after the text message that Jimin sends Yoongi. There will be a brief synopsis at the end of the chapter for those who can't read it. 

Please take care of yourselves and do what you need to stay healthy. 

Mental health is so important and often overlooked, but we can't ignored it. 

Please read the notes at the end of this chapter for more. 

Enjoy!

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"It was just... such a nice weekend." Jimin smiled to himself.

Jungkook put the remote control for the tv down on his lap, satisfied with the channel he put on. 

Jimin and Yoongi had gotten back from Jimin's brother's house just a few hours ago. 

The two were currently at Jungkook's house in the living room while Jungkook's mom was making dinner in the kitchen. Jimin didn't want to be home tonight, in fact, he wanted to be anywhere but home. Yoongi had to go to work, plus he wanted to give him some space, he couldn't be with him every waking moment of his life. Jimin would love to spend another night with Yoongi, and really could if he was able to, but that wouldn't be right. They both need to be their own person and Jimin wanted to spend time with Jungkook and he thought Yoongi would want to spend some time with Hoseok.

Jimin was telling Jungkook about his weekend.

Jungkook turned to face Jimin.

"So what did you guys do? You even stayed for an extra night." Jungkook raised his eyebrows in a suggestive manner. Jimin's cheeks turned a rosy pink and he looked away briefly. He couldn't even get mad at Jungkook. He and Yoongi did do something.

Jungkook's eyes widened in realization,

"You guys did hookup!" Jungkook yelled.

"Shhh!" Jimin turned his head to look towards the kitchen to make sure Jungkook's mom didn't hear. "Shut up! I don't want your mom to hear. I'll get to that later." Jimin warned.

Jungkook put his hands up in surrender.

"Anyway, we just like hung out with my brother and Jennie and it was really nice. They really hit it off, like my brother hugged Yoongi when we were saying goodbye. He doesn't really hug anyone besides me and Jennie so that's huge. And then we went to the dog park and ate every meal together and stuff like that. Me and Yoongi cuddled, like a lot." Jimin blushed again. It's cute when he talks about it with Yoongi, but a little embarrassing when he says it out loud to other people. "And I kind of like, wanted to show him how much I trust him and I also wanted to do it for me in general but I like took my clothes off in front of him. He's only ever seen my bare arms and legs before this, nothing else. He's shirtless all the time around me, but this was the first time I was ever comfortable enough to do something like this."

Jungkook's face softened. He knew just how hard that was for Jimin. He didn't think Jimin would ever be able to trust someone like that, but he was so damn proud of Jimin for doing so.

"Really? That's amazing, Jimin. I'm so proud of you. How did he react?"

"He was really sweet and supportive. I know I look really gross, but he insisted that I didn't. He just kept telling me how beautiful I was and for a few minutes, I actually believed that he meant it. I knew he wasn't going to make a comment or be mean in any way, he's not that kind of person. But I don't know, I just, it was really nice. He said that one day I'll see myself that way he does, but I doubt that. I don't think I can ever be that confident, but we'll see." Jimin shrugged, his excitement and confidence decreased as he kept talking, remembering how low his self esteem is and knowing that he'll never reach that level of confidence.