Reflection | YOONMIN

Chapter 73

Okay, wow. I am so sorry I promised y'all another chapter to be updated soon and I did not deliver. I always say things are crazy in my life, but it is true. Between work, school, and my internship, it's hard to make time for myself and to update this story. So I'm not gonna make any excuses. Anyway, here's the next chapter. There are no words to express my gratitude toward my wonderful readers for sticking with this story and continuously asking for updates. As I already promised, I will see to it that this story is finished and may even start working on a sequel. Please bear with me. Thank you and I love you all.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: This chapter contains sensitive information that may be triggering or hard to read for some people. Mental illness, treatment, parent-child relationships, and traumatic childhood events are discussed in this chapter. 

Please keep yourselves safe and read with caution. 

Enjoy the chapter!

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"Hey, Ji-Hyun? I have a random question that I hope you can answer." Jimin asked, stirring his tea.

He had gone over to his brother's house for the weekend. He and Yoongi agreed that it was healthy and beneficial to have space and do things separately. They live together and while they both are happy that way, it's better for their relationship to have time away from each other and not be completely dependent on one another. Yoongi was spending the weekend with Hoseok.

"What's up, buddy?" Ji-Hyun asked as he was wiping down the kitchen counters. Jennie was out shopping so he wanted to tidy up a little before she got back.

"So, I don't know if you remember that far back, but my doctor, Dr. Lynn?"

Ji-Hyun nodded. He knew Jimin would ask him about this one day. He wouldn't ask their parents because they don't like to talk about it. It embarrasses them.

"I do remember. We did some family sessions."

"Oh, yeah. We did." Jimin did remember that. There were some sessions with his parents and brother, some with just his parents, and then some with just his brother. "Well, mom and dad would just say I had behavior problems, but I didn't think I was a bad kid."

Ji-Hyun stopped cleaning and joined Jimin at the kitchen table where he was sitting.

"It's not that you were bad, Jimin. I remember clearly. You had a lot of meltdowns and there was nothing anyone could do to console you." Ji-Hyun didn't want to make Jimin feel bad. It wasn't his fault, he couldn't help it, but Ji-Hyun knew Jimin would dwell on it and possibly mentally beat himself up for it. Jimin was intently listening. He wanted to know everything. "Okay, listen. When I got a little older, I was snooping around mom and dad's room looking for Christmas presents-" Jimin cut him off by laughing. "-it's true! I was snooping around. But, I found your files from your treatment. You're an adult and deserve to know so now I'm going to tell you." Jimin had no idea there was even a file. "It was wrong of me to read it, but I did it anyway. I uh, also went back and made copies of the files. I know I shouldn't have, but they're your files and I know mom and dad wouldn't give them to you. Hold on a second." Ji-Hyun put his finger up and went to his office to retrieve Jimin's information. Jimin took a breath, he was nervous. He never knew exactly what was "wrong" with him, so having official documents from medical professionals would hopefully bring some clarity and relief, but might also result in confusion. He didn't care, he just wanted to know. He needed to know.

His brother returned with a thick stack of documents neatly separated into multiple manilla folders.

Jimin carefully took the one on top and started flipping through it. There was terminology he wasn't familiar with so it was more confusing than anything.