Reflection | YOONMIN

Chapter 45

WARNING: This chapter contains potentially triggering and upsetting scenes about eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia. There is nothing explicit, but there is a lot of talk about it and it may be hard for some people to read. This may bring up some old wounds or trigger memories for people so please be cautious.

If it is too hard for some to read/handle, there will be a brief synopsis of what happened at the end of this chapter. This is a very important chapter, but I would rather people be safe and know their limits.

Please take care of yourselves and practice a lot of self care. It is very important to practice self care on a regular basis anyway, but after this I highly advise it. 

I am no therapist, but if anyone needs to talk, please feel free to message me. I will be there to listen if anyone needs to talk. 

This is the chapter that y'all have been waiting for so ENJOY MY LOVES!

PS: If you haven't already, please go to the "new cover voting" chapter in this book (it's 2 parts before this) and go check out the beautiful covers that were made for me and vote for which one you would like to see as the new cover of this book! You have until tomorrow night to vote and then I will announce and post the winner on Saturday. 

As always, thank you to each and every one of you for your continuous support for me and this story. I appreciate you all and love you dearly. 

Okay, NOW go and enjoy the chapter!

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It's been about a week since Yoongi and Jimin hung out. They've never gone that long without hanging out before and while in reality it's not even that long, it feels like a lifetime to Jimin.

He'd grown more attached to Yoongi than he ever thought, and quite frankly, more than he ever wanted to. He didn't want to become dependent on him or be that clingy boyfriend that was all over his partner. But he did want to spend all the time he could with Yoongi.

Since it was the summer, Yoongi started working more and he mainly works nights so that means 4:00PM-10:00PM or 3:00PM-10:00PM and sometimes going in earlier if Yoongi said they needed extra help. Starbucks closes at 10:00PM so Yoongi wouldn't normally get back any later than 11:00PM. It wasn't really that late, but Jimin didn't want to bother Yoongi by going over his apartment if he was too tired.

Unfortunately, summer brought on a whole new wave of anxiety for Jimin since his father started forcing him to come to the office with him a few days a week. Jimin never had a real job that he got on his own. His parents paid for everything so he never really had to and mentally, he never thought he could handle it. In lieu of that, he went to work with his dad for extra allowance, not that he really needed it, and for the work experience that he was lacking. This started last summer and he would continue each summer until he graduated and found a job. He hated it. Absolutely hated it. He was forced to sit in his dad's office all day with him to look at boring paperwork. The worst were the lunch breaks where he was not only forced to eat something so he wouldn't embarrass his father in front of his coworkers, but where he would always have to sit and listen to the disgustingly homophobic people his father had to work with. It was torture. It was only a few days a week, about 2-3, but he dreaded it. Now was the time he needed Yoongi the most.

He still talked to Yoongi. In fact he talked to Yoongi everyday so he had no reason to believe Yoongi didn't want to talk to him. He received a good morning/afternoon text, depending on the time Yoongi woke up, and a good night next just about everyday. However, he couldn't shake the paranoia that ate at his mind that Yoongi didn't want to hang out with him anymore. He was being dramatic, and he knew that because it had literally been a week, maybe just a few days more, since they'd hung out. He just wanted to hang out with Yoongi as much as he did during school, if that was possible. He wanted to hang out with him every second he could.