Drugs 3- Yoongi [18+]

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"Yoongi." It was Jin's startled voice that had the younger looking to his left. Having gotten a call from Hoseok. And he could see the the guilt hidden beneath Yoongi's eyes as he took hold of the man who couldn't help but let his frame shudder against the elder's. Because everything happened so fast. And realization hadn't hit him yet.

"Is she okay?! W-what happened?" Jin could barely even speak coherently. Knowing how much the girl meant to Yoongi. But how much she also meant to himself. Because there was no denying that Ming didn't have a special place in his heart. And that she didn't create her own bond with the man who could feel Yoongi's tears seeping into his shirt. All until he pulled away. Wiping them almost angrily off his face before looking over at Jimin who was sat down with his head placed within his hands. His hands that were trembling while unknown tears continued to hit the floor beneath him. Because even if he was intoxicated, he knew what happened and why it did. And god had he never felt more fucking sick to his stomach as Yoongi chuckled an insane chuckle. Gesturing his head towards the man only to have more tears run down his face.

"Ask him, huh? Ask the one who has my girl in the fucking hospital. Who had her crying in my arms because of how fucking painful it was. And who had to bring back that fucking piece of shit into my life." Jin watched the way Yoongi's chest heaved. And the way his laugher only thickened before Jimin looked up at the two in complete surrender. Confused as to what Yoongi meant by the word again. Because Yoojia had been new to them. But had been history to Yoongi himself.

"I'm sorry, hyung— you know I'm fucking sorry." His words were so breathless. And so broken as they came out. But Yoongi felt no sympathy. Nor any sorrow for the man as he laughed all over again. Not caring who watched as he pulled the man up from where he sat. Because realization had hit. And the anger within his being had never been stronger.

"You're sorry, huh?!" His fist was already making way against the youngers face. Unable to feel the pain arising within his knuckles that were littered with blood. Blood that Jimin could feel slipping off his lips and down his nose that had no way of letting any air in, as Yoongi's actions became even rougher. And even stronger than they already were while Jin and Hoseok tried to pull him back. The shouts from the nurses, creating an even thicker layer of tension as Yoongi let go. Knowing that if Ming were there, she'd be begging him to stop. All while kissing away at his skin. Something she'd to distract him. And something she'd do to make him focus on her. And only her.

But Yoongi had none of that right now. Had no distractions. Nor his love. His love that he wouldn't be able to live without even if he tried. Because she was everything to him. Having went through all the good. . . and all the bad with the man who watched the way Jimin's body slid down against the wall. And the way his tears mixed in with the blood that painted his lips.

"If this happens again, we'll have to ask you to leave." Yoongi couldn't even hear the nurses words. Too caught up in his thoughts to listen. And too immersed in the aching of his heart to do anything but watch. Watch Jimin get taken into the back. And watch his life fall apart right before his eyes. Because it was. And he knew it. He knew it the day his father let him deal. Allowing for him to take care of things he had no business taking care of. Because it was always the drugs that came first. The drugs being the real reason why the only girl he'd kill for was currently in surgery. Unable to hear the frantic yells of doctors trying to stop the bleeding. Having noticed that the bullet had hit an artery. And that the color of crimson wouldn't stop itself from escaping. Painting the surface beneath her in the most disturbing manner. All while her heart rate continued to drop. Dropping so much to the point where her breath began to shallow. And her lips began to turn the shade of purple.

But still she could feel. She could feel herself slipping away. Just like she did when holding onto Yoongi. Yoongi being the man who's knees couldn't help but give in. And who's body could no longer hold itself. Because just like Ming, he could feel himself slipping away. Continuing to slip until everything hit him at once. . . all the love. . . all the pain. . . all the sacrifice he had went through just to be with her. Just to have her be the one who meets his eyes every morning. Or be the one who sits there while he plays piano just for her. It being something most would think nothing about. But something that would paint their faces with the most beautiful smiles. All while silent giggles filled the air. Because he could always make her laugh. Or make her unable to contain the adoration in her gaze that would be so gentle when catching his own.

But it was so much more than love. And so much more than just having the girl be the one who he gets to make smile. Or make whimper each time they'd do the most sacred things. Because it was the care. And the want. And the sacrifice one would make even if it gets them killed. Because they'd rather let the other see another day just for them. Or be the one to have someone else recreate the same smile they used to let etch their face. Or whimper out the same silent pleas they couldn't help but let out, all because it felt too good.

But right now, Yoongi didn't know if he could. Didn't know if he could make someone else smile for him the way she does. Or make someone else whimper for more the same way she'd plea. Or the same way she'd have his heart racing with just a gentle giggle of his name emitting off her lips. Because he didn't know. And he wouldn't. Because he didn't know that the girl who would do all those things for him. . . was currently slipping out of his hold. . . all over again.

Not feeling very satisfied with this chapter so, bleh. But I hope my precious kittens have been doing well and that you're enjoying *evil laugh* it is currently super late so mommy will now catch sum z's lol. But Ily so, so much. night night (｡╯ᴗ╰)〜♡