Fake Love

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I remember the days when I chased after love
The days when I was free and young
The days I was just chasing my dreams
And trying to discover my talents and powers.

When I met you, my direction changed
Your smile pulled at my heartstrings
I thought that you were most definitely the one
That I'd cherish my life with as I moved on.

You were the bright light I'd been looking for
At least that's what I had thought
You were there for me and supported me
At least that's what I had believed.

I loved that I was yours and you were mine
I loved that we were inseparable
You were going strong, five months- six!
But things were very wrong.

Is it right that with you I have the brightest smile
Even though my frown runs deeper?
Is it right that with you, I seem stronger
Even though I'm growing weak?

I must be the definition of perfection
I must never show my weakness
I had to be perfect for you
I was too afraid to lose you.

I started running backwards
My feelings became jigsaw
I gave up my dreams and world
So I could stay within yours.

I was no longer myself
You became my puppeteer
I hid myself from you
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I'm so sick of this fake love
I forgot where I came from
I can't seem to get away
I keep wanting more.

You say that I've changed
I'm not who you used to know
I don't even know myself
I only changed for you..

I love you so bad, love you so bad
I'm drowning in these intoxicating emotions
Love is so mad, love it's so mad
A raging fire ready to kill.

My life's slipping away, falling apart
Sand passing through my fingers
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't be
I was an un-blossomed flower.

Please give me the key and show me the way
Lead me to the freedom's door
I want to end this dream that won't ever come true
And bloom as I should have before.

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On Wattpad Amino, there was a #Namjune challenge to celebrate the debut of BTS. Starting on June 2nd, a song was given for each day and you had to write a poem or story for each of them (I wrote a poem for all). The poems are based mainly on the lyric translations and the music videos though some of them have more of my own personal fears and experiences than others.

The next 29 poems are based on this challenge.

Have you ever been a part of a relationship where you felt like you were not being true to yourself? What did you do about it? Do you think your love was real or was it something else?

Until next time,
Ade Alethra

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